Friday, December 30, 2005

What colour am I?






Red
Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Random Hit



Dear Mr You know Who,
I am sick of playing in your turf,
Its time I introduce my set of rules
You’re out if you can’t dance to my tune.
Don’t try that sympathetic moves on me
Behind those glasses and the smiles I can see
Coldness and deceptions
And nothing else but a space so empty
When they see
They too will understand.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Invitation to Simplicity



Heya Peeps,

Poly Stage Factor is holding a drama production entitled Simplicity. Simplicity is a double bill featuring “The Office” and “Que-sera-sera” and will be staged on the 16th December 2005. The main objective of this drama production is to let the less fortunate to enjoy a night of dramas and to thank those who have worked hard for the community. The following are write ups of the two plays featured in the production:

The Office

Centres around the quirks and qualms of office workers in a bomb shelter firm. Audience is given a rare glimpse of what actually happens behind the desktops and the real personalities of each office workers under the pretentious suits, shirts, skirts and pants.

Que-Sera-Sera

Deals with the life of a woman who wants to break free from being bounded by tradition and old beliefs. Her triumph and her fall are all caught within this 45 minutes play.

Date: 16th December 2005
Time: 7pm
Place: Ngee Ann Polytechinic, LT 26
Admission is FREE

Person to contact: Adi, 91080597

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Horny Lyrics



On CCB news tonight, a lyricist and a playwright wannabe, Adi and JY has claimed that they have written some of the most provocative songs today. The following are excerpts from some of their songs in their album: Horny Bitches and Bastardised Songs.

“Cum Like That”

I cum for a little orgy
Wearing some skimpy clothings
Feeling a little horny
Won’t you grab my penis and take it for a ride?

(Bridge)
Cuz it’s the night
Hot sweat, hot kiss
I’m loving it all, baby
No nerds, no boredom
To filled up my life




“Get the Orgy started”

I’m cumming now so you better get the orgy started
I’m cumming now so you better get the orgy started

Get this orgy started on a Saturday night
Everybody’s waiting for me to arrive
Sendin' out the message to all of my friends
We'll be lookin fleshy in cool underwears
I got lotsa style, got my cock diamond rings
I can go for miles if you know what I mean


Get their albums at all leading stores now!

Friday, December 09, 2005

Good News for PSF-ians!!



After so much struggle, PSF is finally chosen to be among the 32 clubs and societies to be featured during the Ngee Ann's open house! More details in the following exerpt taken from an email I received today;

Dear all Staff Advisors of Clubs and Societies

We are allocated 32 booths for CCA Fiesta for Open House 2006 @ the Atrium. The whole idea is to show the diversed and varied types of CCA activities that Ngee Ann offers, and a brand new kind of lifestyle that the CCAs in Ngee Ann promotes which they cannot find in their Secondary Schools. Hopefully this will draw them to choose Ngee Ann as their first choice of school.

A selection criteria was set and the following 32 Clubs and Societies are selected to be featured for the Open House.

1. Student Union
2. Magnum Force
3. NRA Hip Hop
4. CASSC
5. International Student Club
6. Dancesports
7. Adventure Seekers
8. Computer Club
9. Malay Cultural Club
10. Indian Cultural Society
11. Taekwondo
12. Dragonboat
13. Silat
14. Cycling
15. Fencing
16. Volleyball
17. Archery
18. Divers
19. Song Composing
20. Astro Club
21. Poly Stage Factor
22. Japanese Tsubasa
23. Leo Club
24. Environment Rangers
25. French
26. Concert Band
27. Inline skating
28. HI Club
29. BB Primers
30. NP Strings
31. Outward Bounders
32. NYAA


Pst, pst, no signs of Debating Club in the list though... Maybe they decided that only one club who have sessions on Tuesdays can be featured on that day. Maybe if debate club had hold their sessions on other days, they would have stand higher chance of being featured. Then again, this is just my specualtion. I don't really have any idea on the criteria to be chosen.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Letter to YOUR BEST FRIEND



Good morning I**,

Words have it that you’re very disappointed with me. This is in regards to the mail I sent to the principal to appeal on Rahman’s behalf. I heard that you were disappointed because I “did not follow protocols”. Therefore I am writing this with the hope of clearing the air.

First of all, if you’re referring to following the hierarchy as following the protocols, I believed I have already done that. On 7th October 2005, I sent you an email explaining the situation Rahman was in. I appreciated you signing a paper with positive remarks on Rahman. However, given the situation he was at that moment, I was hoping that more could have been done. We wrote the letter, Rahman’s aunt came to school to appeal; nothing seems to work. That is when I decided to write in to the Principal. It was as a last resort. If you’re disappointed, then I am sorry, for I was desperate at that point of time.

However, I was also disappointed at your actions; bickering behind my back to my junior. When I first stepped into office, you kept emphasising on transparency. I believe I have always hold out my part of being transparent. I hope you can do the same. Thank you.

Monday, December 05, 2005

5 THINGS YOU DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT ME

I can't eat no seafood... I usually end up having Jolie's lips after eating them, or worse, I might puke my stomach content out...

I have nipples the size of fifty cents coins

My nipples are some of my most sensitive areas

I perspire easily...it's a wonder how i survived Singapore for the past 23 years.

Note to Harlie: Am feeling lucky liaoz...

Pst...pst... You know what i wanted to say liaoz....yes YOU!!

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Letter to Sir



Dear SIR,

I regret that things turned out foul. I still do not know the reason to your bickering behind our back. I would have respected you more should you had the balls to actually air out your dissatisfaction with us. Whatever it is, I should now attempt to clear the air out.

First of all, I am sure that you are aware of the original casts of The Art of Love. I was supposed to be one of the leading actors. However, during the show for the Freshman Orientation Convention (FOC), I have decided to relinquish my role to you as I thought it would better prepare you for our show during the Arts Camp. I was unable to perform during the Arts Camp as I was away in KL representing school in an All Asian Debating tournament.

After the show for the FOC, your best friend came up to me and asked of my reasons for relinquishing my role to you. according to your best friend, the role is not suited for you. Despite the negative criticisms thrown at your acting skills, i.e. “You just can’t act, and that you have weird ascent”, I still insisted on having you to take over my role during the arts camp.

When The Art of Love was performed for the third time, and since I have no other commitments, I decided to give it a shot. I tried to take on the role. If you were not hapy about me taking up the role, you should have just told us. I would have been more than happy to relinquish the role to you, even though, there have been multiple times when your best friend said you can’t act.

Last but not least, please, voice out your dissatisfaction in the future in the open rather than to talk behind other people’s back. Even though you have irritatingly nasal voice, and your ascent sounds weird, we will still try to listen to your opinions, just like the way we listened to you sing “For the Love of Rome”.

Lotsa Love

Adi

Wat kind of love am I?<>h4>

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.


I beg to differ

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Flashes of November



Adi: (to audience) I have been away. Away for a tad too long. It was like years to me. But what can I do? My damn charger was spoilt making it impossible for me to revive my laptop dearie. I’m sorry if you missed me. But it was really beyond my control.

(cut)

Adi: And so today is Wednesday, 30th November 2005. my laptop adaptor was giving me problem. I needed to do my radio script. So out of desperation, I went around to borrow an adaptor. I asked this obnoxious FAT bitch. She was selfish! I shall just call her LIPO, since she is fat and her name starts with L anyway.

(cut)

Adi: Lipo. Can I borrow your adaptor?

Lipo: For what?

Adi: (in my mind) So that I can stuff it into ur fucking arsehole and electrocute all ur fats away. (to her) I need to charge up my laptop.

Lipo: Can you don’t borrow from me. I am very particular with my stuff

Adi: (in my mind) Selfish Bitch! (to audience) Such a selfish bitch. Such obnoxious FAT bitch!

(cut)

Adi: But then again, my November ain’t all about bitches and bastards. It is filled with fun and laughter too.

(cut)

Harlina: How to jog?

Val: You just increase your speed a little and you must bounce.

Louis: You must bounce and must move forward like this hor. Make sure you don’t bounce on the spot.

Val: If you bounce on the spot, you just jog on the spot

(everyone laughs).

Adi: This is so going into my blog.

(cut)

Over the phone…

JY: Eh. You want to join us or not. We are opposite your working place.

Tasha: Huh? I am already home lah…

Adi: (to JY)Told you so…

Tasha: (To Jy, over the phone). What are you doing there?

JY: We are visiting Adi at his working place. Thought you might wanna join us.

Adi took the phone from JY.

Tasha: (Still thinking that JY is holding the phone). Aiyah. I always drop by the video ezy store ah but he is always not at the counter leh. Like everytime I tried to see if he is in store, he never works.

Adi: But I work on last Monday and I am working today also what...

Tasha: Oh my god. You’re not JY!!
(cut)
(through sms to a few friends)

Adi: Guys. You are invited to my annual intimate gathering in lieu of hari raya this Sunday at blk 276 choa chu kang ave 2 #06-303 after 6. C ya then!

(cut)

Adi: There is a difference between a market-eer and a sales personel. A good market-eer needs to convince to show his prowess. A good sales personel just needs to show a good sales record. The more sales he makes, the better his reputation is. Confused? Well. Take it easy aightz? Anyway, did I tell you that radio has been fun so far?

(cut)


Adi: Good morning sunshine! And the Earth says hello!

Skye: Uhh… Adi. We are on J Mania. You know. The show about Japanese anime. So it doesn’t hurt to speak a little bit of Japanese you know. And they are…

Adi: Whatever lady! Speak to the hand cos the face won’t talk.

Skye: Fine. This lady should talk to our listener then.

Travis: Haiya. The two of you ah…forever fighting with each other. Anyway, let me welcome our listeners to the show… Ira shir e masen (Welcome)

Skye: Boku wa Skye san desu.

Travis: And me! Travis san! …

Adi: Hmph! And your English speaking companion, Adi.

Travis: Okay. Guys. Come on. Let us say welcome to our listeners again. To the count of three now. One. Two. Three.

SFX: Bish sound SFX 378 Tr 29 (2 secs)

Travis: Ouch!

Adi: That’s for trying to make us look retarded!

Skye: (Shaking Travis) Ugh! Quick tell us what’s the featured anime for today!

Travis: Hai! Okay.

Adi: Actually I already know. Our featured anime for today is…

SFX: Drum roll SFX 378 Tr 29 (2 secs)


Travis: Inuyasha!!!

Adi: Eh… That’s my line!!

(cut)

Adi: Anyway, I realised that lately, I have been having customers askin me stupid questions at work. But that didn’t get me as worked as the customer who decided to rent the movie “ Life or something like it” by Angelina Jolie! Yes. I was watching the movie and I didn’t manage to catch the ending cos she decided to rent it! And yes! there is only one copy of that movie in the store! Talking about Video Ezy, anyone interested to buy Ben & Jerry’s? I can get you staff price: $3 for small tub, $9.90 for the big tub.

(cut)

Alin: Who has Hon Kong feet? Someone has Hong Kong feet!

Adi: Bei. This smell have been the same since we were at clubhouse. I suspect it is the same person

Maman: I think so too. Especially since the smell only arises when he came into the clubhouse.

(cut)

Adi: The beauty of compiling ur blog stories into one entry is that you can wirte one very long entry about the past events. The sucky thing about it, you tend to forget about what has just happened. So for now, I shall just stop rambling here. Till then, sayonara minasan! The beauty of doing radio! Learning new things everyday!

Sunday, October 30, 2005

5 minutes ago



..i just finished baking my last tray of cookies of the last cookies. I wanted to call it the $50 cookies cos all the ingredients add up to almost $50. But then again, I thought a better name for it is PATIENCE. Yes. I have decided to call these last cookies PATIENCE. Do you have any idea how much PATIENCE you need to ground a kilogram of almond manually just so that you can use it in these PATIENCE cookies? And do you have any idea how much PATIENCE you need to see all the cookies get baked, one tray at a time, 22 minutes per tray and 20 trays in all? You have no idea how much more PATIENT I have become after the ordeal, or rather IMPATIENT. I did not sleep. My freakin laptop is not operational and I am stuck with this window millennia equipped with office 2000 piece of desktop which is riddled with virus I can hardly pronounced or even annunciate!!

I need a throat. No. Not deep throat. That might just cost you a bomb (tried to tell JY, but she didn’t believe it either, thinking it was a joke, or rather I was joking. I am dead serious. Deep throat-ing me will cost you a bomb!). But then again, that is besides the point. I need a throat, which I could slash and cut to pieces, see the blood ooze, and with it my rage. It really amazes me that I am able to contain all the rage in me, and still write out, or rather type out this entry.

On the other hand, I just feel like crying cos I am emotionally volatile right now. And the movie “Meet Joe Black” isn’t helping much either. I wish for a phonecall now. But then again, I might not even receive it…

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Ahhh



… was the sound you could hear from the toilet just about 5 minutes ago. The good news is, I think I have recovered from my one week old diarrhoea. When I shit this time, I could see that my shit is long and twirly and best of all, it is SOLID. No more watery bowels!

Anyway, did I tell you I did something which I would have termed “stooped” in normal circumstances. Abt two days ago, I went to break fast with my mum and dad. Just the three of us. And my mum passed a remarks which was like “Why do you always dress shabbily nowadays?” Actually, I got jaded of dressing up. Yes. Three years of being in Mass Communication, you can actually get sick of dressing up. But I still don’t mind dressing down, as much as anyone would want me… er-herm. You know what I mean. YES. ESPECIALLY YOU! Anyway, of course I din say that to her. Instead, I was complaining to her of how my shoes are all either spilt or AWOL-ed. And that I no longer have any shoes right now and that is why I have to settle to wearing slippers and lookin, in her own words.. “SELEKEH”.

And guess wat? My father upon hearing that, offered to get me a sandal. After breaking fast, the three of us went on sandal hunting. None caught my eyes, except one brown TEVA sandal, which felt velvet-y. it felt Ooh-sooo-nice. But I guess the orice was nice too. $179 for a pair of freakin sandal. I put those sandals back. I just felt bad for askin dad to pay for such expensive stuff. When he asked why I put it back, I just told him that I wanted to look for other cuts first. If any caught my eyes, I will inform him ASAP to buy it for me… but I will make sure it will not cost more than $50. If not, I might as well get myself a pair of shoes.

Yes. I know. Offer only comes like once in a blue moon. And I didn’t take it. On a brighter note, I am glad Adik Maman’s appeal has been accepted. Yay!

p.s: Somehow, my cookies this year don’t taste as nice. One possibility could be because I was too jaded with all the bakings and cookies. But then again, it could also mean I am losing my touch on baking…*GASP*

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Juz a short update



…on what happened 2 days ago. I was having this combo of diarrhoea and continuous vomiting for almost one week. My stomach hurts a lot cos it was empty, or at least almost empty. My back hurts. My head hurts. I guess this was all due to the combo thingy.

On top of that, I got home late. On a cab. By the time the cab was about to reach my place, I had to ask the driver to turn in to the carpark. The driver had to even help me get to the lift lobby and pressed the lift for me. He got up to the sixth floor with me and get the money from mum.

After reading all the above description of what happened two days ago, how do you feel? Nonchalant?

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Horoscope from Frenster.com



Making a choice between two attractive offers has never been something that's especially disturbed you -- especially when you've been responsible for arranging each of them. That's what's on your plate, so prepare yourself. Oh, and if someone comes along who seems eager to pretend they're exactly what you're looking for, don't feel obligated to let them know you're on to them. Not right away, at any rate. You've got more important things to think about.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Updated



..the links on the side bar. Finally the link to my Baby Maman's blog is fixed!

WeeEeeee



...finally am using the song which Tasha have taken the trouble of uploading it to her little webspace.

After more than



23 years of celebrating Hari Raya, I am seriously jaded of it. Don't feel like celebrating it this year...

It’s 5 plus



…in the morning and I am sure by now, you feel like exclaiming “Thank God!” or “Hallelujah!” or other wordy thanks to God for now you see an update on adislayer.blogspot.com. Before you ACTUALLY do that, I think it would be more appropriate to thank me for taking the time off to just update you and only YOU on the latest development in my life.

Yes. It has been close to a month that you last saw anything from me. The truth is, I do have a life. Yes. However, when it comes to choosing what goes in here or what shouldn’t is another issue altogether. There were good times, and then again there were some not so good times. Friends down with appendix (is that how you spell it?), or rather just one friend that I know of. Broken relationship, engaged no more and suicidal tendencies just sky rocketed. It’s once again that time of the year. End of year phenomenon. But then again, those are just what I am surrounded with.

Some people tend to notice that I only update when I have something bitchy or angry to blog about. However, you have been much of an avid reader, I am sure you know the degree of truth in this.

Some people say my entries have been quite erratic. I do have to admit that some were. This could probably be due to the nature of an AQUARIUS MAN. This could also be me satisfying the stereotype of an AQUARIUS MAN. It has been quite a pleasure to feed one’s speculations/ stereotypes:

Debates have been fun while it lasts. I don’t even know now when training is. The last I heard was that it has been changed to Tuesdays. I don’t know who made the change. All I know, it clashed with PSF sessions. So, I am sure you know where my priority lies.

School has been okay. Passed all subjects and scored my first AD! On the other hand, I have another D to add to the certificate: MEDIALAW sucks! *Looking forward to three days per week next semester.

Drama was exhilarating lately. Did dance steps. Script done. plans set. Target audience set. Look out for the OFFICE people. And important to take note: Be nice to PSF and you might just get a special invitation to our latest production due in December 2005! Yes. this production is going to be slightly different. No tickets. Just invites only. *winks*

Farah is working with Eaglevision. Everyone: Start puking blood now. Yes. Eaglevision, the land where you still might just find dinosaurs: P2 computers running on Window 98. God bless the people working there.


…there you go. Erotic enough for your taste bud? I mean, ERRATIC enough for your taste bud? Waha!

Have I told you of my experience in JB? I guess not. Well. Here is the thing. It was 4 plus in the afternoon. Me, mum, my aunt and uncle and my cousin were all waiting for SBS 160 to take us to Teck Whye. Then came along this Chinese guy who suddenly kept smiling at me. He was waiting next to my uncle, who surprisingly made conversation with the Chinese guy. I suspected that he is gay. 5 minutes later, my uncle was giving him the disapproving look. I can hardly hear what they were talking about, but here is ONE POSSIBLE conversation that they might have had…

Chinese Guy (CG): Hey. You see that guy. I think he is cute.
Uncle: Which one?
CG: The one wearing the black t-shirt and carrying a backpack.
Uncle: Oh that one ker? That one my nephew lah sia.
CG: Cute
Uncle: I used to look a lot like him sia
CG: The what happened now?
Uncle: (looks at Chinese Guy with a disapproving look) (inside heart) Puki Mak Kau punya laki bodoh!!

Kwang Kwang Kwang. Oops. Termaki pulak time ramadhan nie. Translation: Oops! Accidental vulgarity in the month of Ramadhan.

p.s: I love you… and I know that you know that I know that you know.

Friday, October 14, 2005

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.
Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others.
You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.
The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.
Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

Monday, September 26, 2005

The Aquarian Man

Got this from my bro, Heday:

AQUARIUS MAN

Hot-hearted man who likes to do thing his way. He can suddenly decide to do something without thinking of it's outcome. He is the type of guy with an inside energizer, so if you fall in love with this type of guy be "patient", even if you have to follow him a bit. His creative mind could create fantastic idea any time. If you do not understand or can not follow him, you won't be with him for long.A man in this Zodiac will less likely to have a pale skin, and if he has a scar, it would be on his face or on his head. He moves very fast and very energetic, and he has a very self confident in himself. He is not the type to sit down and feel sorry or regret anything for long, especially with "Love". He loves justice. He dares to show his opinion or even argue about cert ain subject even he knows it might bring him problems. A straight forward type of guy.He hardly lies except if he think it is necessary and he is not a good liar anyway. He will not lie to you about serious matter, but if he lie he will lie only a small little thing. He is gifted with the ability to be a very social person. He could talk even about subject that he has no knowledge of. He interests only at the present time and look at the world positively. Many times he feels hurt because of reality, but he will not run away and he will overcome that difficulty.Even he is a high and self confident type and center his own thought as a main focus, but at the same time he is a kind, cute and polite guy. He certainly is not a mean person. He likes to help people who are in troubles even he is not asked to. He is the type who feels sorry if you remember bad things he said to you that he had already forgotten,but you did not. Belief him that he is very sorry and give him another chance.Once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his "Work", or "Love". He is the type who gamble anything in the casino, so do not even take him there. He does not like pessimistic, low energy, and depress person, especially no brain. Strangely he like to overpowered this type of people to assure that he is more superior.He like to be the first person to do something. You can see sparkling in his eyes, once he meet a new target or new lover. Once he is in love, he will act as if he never has love like this before. This minute he could be real sugar sweet, and later he could also be an icy cold, but do not blame him for that will only chase him away. He could fall in love again with another girl and act again like he never has this kind of love before.He could really love someone, but not a heart broken type for he thinks love is "excitement" and "Love goes on".If you date this kind of guy, do not or avoid showing your face to him with face pack, face mask, always be presentable, nice and cute. If he is quiet not because he is shy, but he is only quietly thinking. If you have a chance to ask his X-girlfriend, she will tell you that he is not a shy or quiet type. If he is really and truly in love with you, he will never lie to you at all. How do you know if he loves you, bet on your faith! Love him and treat him steadily and do not try to find anything to argue with him, he will be with you for sure.If you are his lover or girlfriend and need to tell him something, go and say it out loud and straight forward because he hate long boring story. He hate to play games, chasing for love or being chased, so let him call you first. He likes a confident woman who also a good follower. If he gets mad at you, let him be for only a short time he wil l be normal again. You have to like and be able to get along with his friends, but he does not have to do so with all your friends.Don't ever think you could make him jealous by flirting with other man, he will just leave instead of making a scene because he is a confident man and has to be the first in everything.

To me this is quite true. Especially those which I have highlighted… Nyeh heh!!

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

What is the deal here?



Got this mail today:

Hi Mahadi!

Sharini here! How have you been? Just to inform you, I also have a blog page (so backdated right, me? i know).
So check it out at smile-with-me.blogspot.com
Where are you working now?


Hei Nini dear. Yes. You are backdated alright. But better late than never. Anyway, I just made a shocking discovery. Jacob has converted to a girl. Regarding to ur qn… I am working with VidEzy now. Sorry I couldn’t reply through mails. Somehow, there seems to be something wrong with your mail box.

Moving on, I would just like to share with you one tip about cooking:

DON’T COOK WHEN YOU ARE FUCKING SLEEPY


Yes. Monday was my mum’s birthday. Therefore, I planned to cook for her an egg caramel after I knocked off from work at 2300hrs. Turned out, I fell asleep but Adik Maman has managed to wake me up at ard 3++ close to 4.

Dazed, I started working on my egg caramel. Two hours after that, I went to check my egg caramel and to my dismay, it didn’t turn out as it usually did. This time, the egg caramel did not expand upwards. I thought maybe I just cool it down, of course hidden from my mum, for a while and maybe some fairy god mother might just sprinkle some miracle and make it expand upwards. When Adik woke me up at 10++ I went ov3er and was disappointed at the outcome. I tried tasting it. It tasted salty. Wait! It is not supposed to be salty!

I believed I have just added salt instead if sugar into the whole freaking egg caramel. Congratulations.

But that is not the moist heart wrenching discovery for the day. Yes. I have first of all discovered that mum has moved the salt next to sugar. And it has always been like that for one whole freaking week. I didn’t notice it because I don’t use sugar to make my coffee. I use sweetener instead.

I broke down. No. Not because I have failed to make an egg caramel. It’s just that I guess she was right. she has every right to be mad at me. I have spent so much time out of house that I seem not to care about what has been going on in the house. It’s like I don’t treat my house as home anymore. I didn’t even realise simple things such as arrangements of salt and sugar.

Yes. True enough I did talk to my brothers when I got home. But do I really even know of their latest developments? I guess not. Yes. I am that useless now. Heck, I didn’t even know that my mum got acquainted to the cakes of Secret Recipes!

Sigh. Talk about no longer knowing your family eh? And they always feature this scenario to be only applicable to those high flying corporate people. I am not a corporate people and definitely am far from being high flying. But somehow, it happened.

Sigh. So after the whole failure, I thought I needed to get her something. And I got her a slice of Cappuccino Cheesecake, her favourite. Yes. At the moment, I can only afford a slice for her. Thanks Cik Maz for the big tip!!!!

Final words: Happy Birthday Mom!

p.s: You should have seen the beam on my mum’s face. I bet she didn’t expect this esp[ecially since we were going through rough time at the moment.

p.s: Don’t worry girl. He will come running back to you. Even though I didn’t, it doesn’t mean that he won’t. It just means that I have less tolerance.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Did I tell you



…what I wore on both Saturday and Friday. Yes. Spring cleaning can be so good. Cos I found my kinky G-string. Sigh. Memory. Yes. I got it from my friend, whom I have not seen for ages right now. Shucks!

Wearing a G-string can be kinky, only if of course you shave the hair in the nether region. I have seen people wearing G-string when they have a bush/ forest down in that area and they looked more of seksa (pronounced as sek-sa, which means a sore to the eye) rather than seksi (pronounced as sexy, I’m sure you know what it means).

I don’t know. Maybe it is just me, but I totally feel that G-string is such a booster. Yes. booster in any form, be it ego, confidence or morale. Nope. Sorry Ms Blonde. It does not boost your IQ.

So if you are feeling down and less confident, I suggest you run up to the nearest departmental store and get yourself a G-String, preferable in colours screaming for attention, such as RED.

Saturday, September 17, 2005

And the stage was lit



…spot on to the character in the center stage. Everything was set for Adi’s monologue.

Adi: Monologue. Soliloquy (pronounced as si-lo-lo-ku-eh). What’s the difference? Fuck you. Fuck me. Fuck the world. What’s the difference?

Audience 1: One is the fuckee and one is the fucker?

Adi: Shut up! Silence!

Audience: Shhhh…

Adi: (Clears throat and using his soprano’s voice) At first I was afraid. I was petrified.

Audience: About wat?

Adi: Aiyah. Let me tell you ah. Right now at hand… got…

Audience: Got wat?

Adi: (ala the song “Tell Laura I love her”, the starting) Lost stuffs, I and E and most definitely December Production!

Audience 2: I could help..

Adi: And wat’s the price?

Audience 2: Oh come on. We are a family. ( starts singing the big momma’s entrance song in Chicago)

Ask any of the chickies in my pen
They'll tell you I'm the biggest mother.. hen!
I love 'em all and all of them love me
Because the system works
The system called reciprocity...

Got a little motto
Always sees me through
When you're good to Mama
Mama's good to you.

There's a lot of favors
I'm prepared to do
You do one for Mama
She'll do one for you.

They say that life is tit for tat
And that's the way I live
So, I deserve a lot of tat
For what I've got to give
Don't you know that this hand
Washes that one too
When you're good to Mama
Mama's good to you!

If you want my gravy
Pepper my ragout
Spice it up for Mama
She'll get hot for you

When they pass that basket
Folk contribute to
You put in for Mama
She'll put out for you

The folks atop the ladder
Are the ones the world adores
So boost me up my ladder, Kid
And I'll boost you up yours

Let's all stroke together
Like the Princeton crew
When you're strokin' Mama
Mama's strokin' you

So what's the one conclusion
I can bring this number to?
When you're good to Mama
Mama's good to you!



Adi: Ah. Fuck You!

Audience: Gasp!!

Adi: Ahh!. With the shit I have gone through, I have all rights to say fuck u and u and u!!

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you all, I deserve better

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you all, I deserve better


Audience 3: So what are you gonna do now?

Adi: You know what?

Audiece 3: I don’t know

Adi: That is not how it is supposed to go!

Audience 3: Then how?

Adi: Check your fucking scripts!

Audience 3: Oh. Okay. So I am supposed to say “ What now brown cow?”
Adi: Now. I can see it. The lights and cameras all set for me. Just me. Basking in glory, without some fat arse overshadowing my limelight or some barely there stone to derail me off my fame. I shall be king!

Director: Oi!! Wrong script lah!! Get off my stage!!

Adi: Well. Like duh. Of course it will be wrong. Cos you’re not in it. Bleah! (takes his bags and stormed off the LT)

p.s: All too familiar isn’t it. But here is a disclaimer. The script above is purely fictional and has nothing to do with any real person living or dead. Enjoy the weekend yo’ all! I definitely will, with a free movie screening. No. make that two. Batman Begins and Fantastic Four.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Let me Give U



…a riddle. Got hand phone but cannot use. Got wallet but got no money. Got a pair of 50 cents but also cannot use. Who am I?

Answer: Urs truly… Adi… Like duh!

Yes. If you still have not known, my outgoing calls have been barred. Yes. You got me right. It is B-A-R-R-E-D, with a big fat B. I am pissed. I just owed them less than $150. It off the line go. Nah beh chee bai!!!

Okay. So that makes last week the worst week. Sucky revelations and death of a beloved one. But I am more determine than ever to make this week a better one.

Let me just get a few things straight. Last week, after the little sketch we did, me and Adik Rahman had to separate ourselves to keep all the props. First of all, I don’t see no volunteers to help us carry the props back. Secondly, if I were to follow the group of you shee shaying; 1. Who is going to pay for me: I’m broke remember? 2. Are there anyone to help carry the props?

See, if you don’t feel like helping or contribute constructive feedback, why don’t you just shut your gap, rather than to speculate unnecessarily.

Am sleepy now. Will continue again… Shucks

Sunday, September 11, 2005

MY gravest mistake



…was to pretend that everything was fine. Everything was smooth. And to put up a strong front in the hope that no one will know of my pain. I bravely put up a smile and even a laugh or two to show that I can get over it. Little did I know that I was never fine.

See, that is a big NO-NO. Cos when the hurt hit you all at one shot, you just feel like dying. I cried in the bus before I could even reach home. I cried at home till I fall asleep. When I woke up, I can’t help but to keep crying. It is an hour before I start work at Video Ezy, I don’t even feel like working. Tomorrow is Medlaw exam, but I just can’t keep my mind clear to even read the notes. It just hurts so much.

And usually when things go bad, or when I am hurting so much, I knew that everything would be okay when I reached home. I knew that there will be arms around me to remind me that everything is gonna be okay. But this time, I no longer have that. And I only have myself to blame.

As strong as I would like to picture myself, I think this time, I collapsed…

Saturday, September 10, 2005





You Are 15% Left Brained, 85% Right Brained



The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.

Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.

If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.

Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.



The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.

Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.

If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.

Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.











You Are 80% Extrovert, 20% Introvert



You are as outgoing as they come

The life of the party, you're friends with everyone

You're a people person, and you are quite the entertainer

You love being around a crowd and acting spontaneously


I read you too



…and all I can say was thank you for the concern. Despite the hurt that I have caused, somehow you still cared for me. And I would also like to say sorry that you didn’t get to hear it from me first hand.

In my mind: What a waste… I rather read about your culinary achievement… hee hee.

But seriously, I just feel that you deserve someone better. Someone who can make you feel secure. Someone who could be there for you every time you need him. *hugz* smile pls?

p.s: Thanks for the concern. But seriously, it’s time for to move on and experience the ocean. I am just a piece of sand. There is lots more to be found in the ocean. Maybe you might just be able to get a pearl. *winks*

It was 1630hrs



…when I received news of your departure. I guess it didn’t really sink in to me; the hurt that is. It only sinks in now. But then again I guess I rather you go then live a torturous live; cancer and then stroke, life can never be more cruel.

I still remember. I was taking my sort of PSLE for my religious class. And one of the tactless ustazah said that she don’t like the way I read. She said I was trying too hard to be some ang mohs and put in some fake accent while reading the quran. I felt depress. You tried to cheer me up later that day when I went for your quran recital class. You gave me encouragement to keep on reading the quran. Because of you I know how to read the quran. I could never thank you enough for that.

9th September 2005, 1600hrs. I hope your roh dicucuri rahmat. Amin.

Friday, September 09, 2005

TSK TSK



…let me tell you something. After the hellacious Tuesday, something else happened. Just to refresh your memory on Tuesday. My other half confessed of affairs behind my back when we are, or rather were, in a relationship. I was shocked, disappointed, not knowing where to turn. So I went to my beloved Adik Rahman for comfort till the wee hours. I think the lyrics would tell more of what happened:

VERSE 1
I SHOULD'VE LEFT IT AT, HOW YA DOIN
I SHOULD'VE LEFT IT AT, I LIKE YOUR MUSIC TOO, AND
I SHOULD'VE NEVER CALLED YOU BACK WHEN YOU PURSUED ME
I SHOULD'VE NEVER GIVEN YOU MY F@?**'N TWO WAY
I SHOULD'VE NEVER LISTENED TO YOUR WOEFUL STORIES
YOU SHOULD'VE NEVER INTIMATED WE WERE LOVERS
WHEN YOU KNOW VERY WELL
WE WOULD ONLY CARE FOR EACH OTHER


CHORUS 1
WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU WHEN IT ALL FALLS DOWN, AND
WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU WHEN YOUR BANKROLL RUNS OUT
WHO'S GONNA CARE WHEN THE NOVELTY'S OVER
WHEN THE STAR OF THE SHOW ISN'T YOU ANYMORE
NOBODY CARES WHEN THE TEARS OF A CLOWN
FALL DOWN---
NOBODY CARES WHEN THE TEARS OF A CLOWN
FALL DOWN


VERSE 2
I GOTTA BREAK IT TO YA DELICATELY, DUNNY
TAKIN MY TIME TWENTY MINUTES WASN'T NOTHIN
BUT I GUESS YOU WOULDN'T KNOW
THAT'S THE WAY I ROLL
CONSEQUENTLY NOW YOUR EGO'S FULLY OVERBLOWN
YOU DON'T WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW
THAT YOU'RE JUST A PUPPET SHOW
AND THE LITTLE BOY INSIDE
OFTEN SITS AT HOME ALONE
AND CRIES, CRIES, CRIES, CRIES (BOO HOO….WHO?)


CHORUS 2
WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU WHEN IT ALL FALLS DOWN, AND
WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU WHEN YOUR BANKROLL RUNS OUT
(WHEN YOUR BANKROLL RUNS OUT)
WHO'S GONNA CARE WHEN THE NOVELTY'S OVER
WHEN THE STAR OF THE SHOW ISN'T YOU ANYMORE
NOBODY...(NOBODY...)
NOBODY


BRIDGE
YOUR PAIN IS SO DEEP ROOTED
WHAT WILL YOUR LIFE BECOME
SURE YOU HIDE IT
BUT YOU'RE LOST AND LONESOME
STILL JUST A FRAIL SHOOK ONE


CHORUS 3
WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU WHEN IT ALL FALLS DOWN, AND
(TELL ME WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU? WHO? I'D LIKE TO KNOW)
WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU WHEN YOUR BANKROLL RUNS OUT
(IF YOU DIDN'T HAVE NOTHING)
WHO'S GONNA CARE WHEN THE NOVELTY'S OVER
(WHO-WHO'D STILL BE THERE)
WHEN THE STAR OF THE SHOW ISN'T YOU ANYMORE
(NOBODY, NOBODY, NOBODY OH)
NOBODY CARES WHEN THE TEARS OF A CLOWN (THERE AIN'T NOBODY BABY)
FALL DOWN ----(BULLIES IN THE SCHOOLYARD)

(WHEN THEY FALL THEY FALL HARD)
NOBODY CARES WHEN THE TEARS OF A CLOWN
(YEAH.... SO YOU BETTER THINK TWICE BETTER PLAY NICE)
FALL DOWN (BETTER THINK TWICE BETTER PLAY NICE)

(CAUSE WHO'S GONNA BE THERE)


CHORUS 4
WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU WHEN IT ALL FALLS DOWN, AND
(WHEN THE JOKES ON YOU)
WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU WHEN YOUR BANKROLL RUNS OUT
(A MARIONETTE SHOW)
WHO'S GONNA CARE WHEN THE NOVELTY'S OVER
(WHO'S MAKIN YOU MOVE THOUGH)
WHEN THE STAR OF THE SHOW ISN'T YOU ANYMORE
(I KNOW WHAT KILLS YOU SLOW)
NOBODY CARES WHEN THE TEARS OF A CLOWN
(I'M GONNA KEEP YOUR LITTLE SECRET THOUGH, MMMM HMMMM)
FALL DOWN

(AND YOU KNOW THAT I KNOW)
NOBODY CARES WHEN THE TEARS OF A CLOWN
(YOU'RE NO SUPERHERO)
FALL DOWN----
(I GUESS YOUR MAMMA NEVER
TOLD YOU THAT WHAT
GOES AROUND COMES BACK AROUND...POW)

Yes. You shouldn’t have intimated that we are lovers when you know that there is nothing between us and that I had just got out of a bad relationship. I am still the person I am eleven months ago. *Disappointed*

Thursday, September 08, 2005

What i did when i am Bored!



He had it coming
He had it coming
He had it coming all along
I didn’t do it
But if I did it
How could you tell me that I was wrong!

He had it coming
He had it coming
He only had himself to blame
If you'd have been there
If you'd have heard it
I betcha you would
Have done the same!


Yes. I sang this song over and over again, playing the DVD over and over again in my store. shucks. Where are all the customers!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Hellacious Tuesday



… should really be bookmarked. 6th of September, that will be 06092005. if buy Toto, surely never come out one, cos the number so suay. Let me tell you what exactly happened.

Wait. Let me first ask you one simple question: What would you do if your other half cheats on you? Wait. Should it be cheats or cheated? Cheated would mean that your other half is no longer doing it. Cheats would mean that your other half is still doing it. Well. I don’t know. But according to my other half, there will not be anymore cheating after this. Anyway, let’s go back to the question: What would you do? Would you continue the relationship and pretended that nothing happened?

Second question: Do you think a confession would make everything go okay? Let’s say your other half slept around, WHILE YOU AND YOUR PARTNER ARE STILL IN A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP. Wait. That sounds wrong. Let me rephrase that: Let’s say your other half slept around, WHILE HE/SHE IS STILL IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU, and then he/she confesses to you and EXPECT YOU TO FORGET ALL ABOUT IT, will you really be able to forget everything, just because he/she confesses to you? Will you be able to forget it, just because he/she did more good for you?

Anyway, if a confession makes everything so forgiveable, here is a note to you: If I were to go out and kill Mr P and that 26 yr old malay bastard whom you slept with, and then I confess it to the court, do you think they will just say: Oh. That’s a courageous act. And by this I am referring to the confession… Do you think they will just let me free because of the confession I made? I think not!

And talking about murdering unfaithful other halves, suddenly this song came to my head, a number from Chicago:

[LIZ]
Pop
[ANNIE]
Six
[JUNE]
Squish
[HUNYAK]
Uh uh
[VELMA]
Cicero
[MONA]
Lipschitz!
(4X)

[ALL]
He had it coming
He had it coming
He only had himself to blame
If you'd have been there
If you'd have seen it

[VELMA]
I betcha you would have done the same!

[LIZ]
Pop
[ANNIE]
Six
[JUNE]
Squish
[HUNYAK]
Uh uh
[VELMA]
Cicero
[MONA]
Lipschitz!
(2X)

[LIZ (Spoken)]
You know how people
have these little habits
That get you down. Like Bernie.
Bernie like to chew gum.
No, not chew. POP. So I came home this one day,
And I am really irritated, and
looking for a little sympathy
and there's Bernie layin'
on the couch, drinkin' a beer
and chewin'. No, not chewin'.
Poppin'. So, I said to him,
I said, "You pop that
gum one more time..."
and he did.
So I took the shotgun off the wall
and I fired two warning shots...
...into his head.

[ALL]
He had it coming
He had it coming
He only had himself to blame
If you'd have been there
If you'd have heard it
I betcha you would
Have dome the same!

[ANNIE (Spoken)]
I met Ezekiel Young from
Salt Lake city about two years ago
and he told me he was single
and we hit it off right away.
So, we started living together.
He'd go to work, he'd come home, I'd
fix him a drink, We'd have dinner.
And then I found out,
"Single" he told me?
Single, my ass. Not only
was he married
...oh, no, he had six wives.
One of those Mormons, you know. So that
night, when he came home, I fixed him
his drink as usual.
You know, some guys just can't hold
their arsenic.

[ALL]
He had it coming
He had it coming
He took a flower
In its prime
And then he used it
And he abused it
It was a murder
But not a crime!

[JUNE (Spoken)]
Now, I'm standing in the kitchen
carvin' up the chicken for dinner,
minding my own business,
and in storms my husband Wilbur,
in a jealous rage.
"You been screwin' the milkman,"
he says. He was crazy
and he kept screamin',
"you been screwin the milkman."
And then he ran into my knife.
He ran into my knife ten times!

[ALL]
If you'd have been there
If you'd have seen it
I betcha you would have done the same!

[HUNYAK (Spoken in Hungarian)]
Mit kersek, en itt? Azt mondjok, hogy a hires lakem lefogta a ferjemet en meg
lecsaptam a fejet. De nem igaz, en artatlan
vagyok. Nem tudom mert mondja
Uncle Sam hogy en tettem. probaltam
a rendorsegen megmayarazni de nem ertettek meg...

[JUNE (Spoken)]
Yeah, but di you do it?

[HUNYAK]
UH UH, not guilty!

[VELMA]
My sister, Veronica and
I did this double act
and my husband, Charlie,
used to travel round with us.
Now, for the last number in our act,
we did these 20 acrobatic tricks in a row
One,two,three,four,five...splits, spread eagles,
back flips,flip flops, one right after the other.
So this one night before the show we're down at the hotel Cicero,the three of us,boozin', havin' a few laughs and
we ran out of ice, so I go out to get some.
I come back, open the door, and there's Veronica and
Charlie doing Number Seventeen the spread eagle.
Well, I was in such a state of shock,
I completely blacked out. I can't remember a thing.
It wasn't until later,
when I was washing the blood off my hands
I even knew they were dead.


[VELMA]
They had it coming
[GIRLS]
They had it coming
[VELMA]
They had it coming
[GIRLS]
They had it coming
[VELMA]
They had it coming all along
[GIRLS]
They had it coming all along
[VELMA]
I didn't do it
[GIRLS]
She didn't do it
[VELMA]
But if I done it
[GIRLS]
But if she done it
[VELMA]
How could you tell me that I was wrong?

[VELMA]
They had it coming
[GIRLS]
They had it coming
[VELMA]
They had it coming
[GIRLS]
They had it coming
[VELMA]
They had it coming
[GIRLS]
They took a flower
[VELMA]
All along
[GIRLS]
In its prime
[VELMA]
I didn't do it
[GIRLS]
And then they used it
[VELMA]
But if I'd done it,
How could you tell me that I was wrong?

[MONA(Spoken)]
I loved Al Lipschitz
more than I can possibly say.
He was a real artistic guy...
sensitive... a painter.
But he was always trying
to find himself.
He'd go out every night
looking for himself
and on the way
he found Ruth,
Gladys,
Rosemary and Irving.
I guess you can say we broke
up because of artistic differences.
He saw himself as alive
and I saw him dead.

[ALL]
The dirty bum, bum, bum, bum, bum
The dirty bum, bum, bum, bum, bum

[Group 1]
They had it comin'
[Group 2]
They had it comin'
[Group 1]
They had it comin'
[Group 2]
They had it comin'
[Group 1]
They had it comin'
[Group 2]
They had it comin'
[Group 1]
All along
[Group 2]
All along
[Group 1]
'Cause if they used us
[Group 2]
'Cause if they used us
[Group 1]
And they abused us
[Group 2]
And they abused us
[ALL]
How could you tell us that we were wrong?

[Group 1]
He had it coming
[Group 2]
He had it coming
[Group 1]
He only had himself to blame.
[Group 2]
He only had himself to blame.
[Group 1]
If you'd have been there
[Group 2]
If you'd have been there
[Group 1]
If you'd have seen it
[Group 2]
If you'd have seen it
[ALL]
I betcha you would have done the same!

[LIZ (Spoken)]
You pop that gum one more time!
[ANNIE (spoken)]
Single my ass.
[JUNE (Spoken)]
Ten times!
[HUNYAK (Spoken)]
Miert csukott Uncle Same bortonbe.
[VELMA (Spoken)]
Number seventeen-the spread eagle.
[MONA (Spoken)]
Artistic differences.

[LIZ]
Pop
[ANNIE]
Six
[JUNE]
Squish
[HUNYAK]
Uh uh
[VELMA]
Cicero
[MONA]
Lipschitz!

I especially like Velma’s part (highlighted in red). Cos I could so relate to it…

Last words, if you are in a relationship, please take note of the following BIG NO-NO in a relationship:

1. Don’t sleep around with others even if you are given consent. It only shows your utter stupidity, and of course how much the relationship means to you as compared to sex!

2. Do not compare your current partner with your previous ones. It only says out one thing: That your current partner is just as good as your old ones. Then my comment is: Go live in the past!! There is a reason why it did not work out, and you comparing the past with the present clearly indicates that you fell that this relationship ain’t gonna work too, just like the previous ones!

3. Do not compare what you give with what your partner give, it clearly shows how sincere you are, or rather how insincere you can be!

Side note: Adam is right…

p.s: Though I may be good at acting that nothing ever happened every time went wrong, I guess trying to pretend your innocence is hard. Therefore, I am not going to pretend that it is okay!

p.s: You always compare me with your past relationships. Since this is the first time, or so you claim, that you cheated in a relationship, I guess I am worst than any of them in the past, and that is why you resorted to cheating, or rather sleeping with others while we are in a relationship!

p.s: I trade off my parent’s trust, my friend’s trust to be with you. in the end, you out of any people, abused my trust. Don’t dream of ever getting it back any time soon.

p.s: Thank you adik for being by my side, comforting me till unearthly hour. Really appreciated it. And of course the shoulder to cry on.

p.s: They say karma works. I say suck on my ass. I never cheated on any of my relationships. So fuck Karma!

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Time Filler



If you still had not known, I am officially EMPLOYED. Yes. I am an employee of VIDEOEZY. And let me tell you… IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE EMPLOYED. To be almost financially independent. Yes. Give me about a two months or so to settle all the debts *winks at Audrey, Min, JY and Harlie* and I will be on my two feets again. Been longing for this feeling for quite some times.

Anyway, I enjoyed the job a lot. Free movie rentals any time I want, and free viewing of movies when no customers around. And best of all, I felt like I am paid to watch movies. How kewl is that, right? *winks*

Let’s see. What else should I update u non. Oh, Media Law exam is on Monday. I have yet to get my notes together, let alone revise them. Lucky for me, I have managed to set up a group to study together this Wednesday. Yes. This is the same group I had last sem and we did great. Am looking to fun filled quality time together with you groupies!! Waha!!

p.s: Adik. Thanks for that note on ur blog. It was so overwhelming that I teared…

p.s: To my DocPro mates, hang in there guyz. Almost complete liaoz!!!

p.s: To my study groupies, Wednesday at 10 hor!

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

First Signs



…are up. Nights after nights. Premonitions after premonitions. It all ends up the saem. DEATH. I bet you will not need to try very hard to forget. Death removes everything The first sign is already out. Cold body. Am waiting for the 40th day…

Kinky part 2



Okay. I bet you remembered that on Sunday I was wearing my SAJC shorts. Today, I found my long lost Calvin Klein boxer. Yes. It was very precious to me actually. Up to date, it was my most expensive undie. Nyeh heh! Therefore I only wear it on special occasions and whenever I am feeling kinky.

I wore it today though, because of a special occasion. Me and my long lost boxer reunited. That calls for a celebration man! Therefore, I wore the boxer.

It also reminded me of a very special memory… talking about memory *clears throat*. “memory, Memory
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
It was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again
Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too
And the new day will begin
Burnt out ends of smokey days
The stale cold smell of morning
The streetlamp dies
Another night is over
Another day is dawning
Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my day in the sun
If you touch me you'll understand what happiness is
Look a new day has begun
Memory
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
It was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again”

Nyeh heh… Did I tell you that me and Salleh were singing this song from the Phantom of the Opera… “Think of me…Think of me fondly. Before you say gooooood byeeeee”…

Harlie’s only comment “Adi…. Bleh mati seh!!”

My only response: Kwang Kwang Kwang

p.s: I was confused. I seek understanding. I was told that in doubt asked. But apparently, your attitude... I’m just disappointed. Everytime I thought we could talk things out, you just threw everything aside and say that your ways are right... So much for “if you have problems, come and share it with me”.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Kinky…



That was the feeling I had last Sunday. Wait. Let me think. *Raised an eyebrow*. Yup. I was working last Sunday. And guess what? I found my short short from my SAJC days. Yes. During my batch, the SAJC PE shorts were super short! And it has this satin feeling to it, like very soft soft and nice when it rubs against your skin, especially the you know where.

Okay. So the past few days, I have not been folding the laundry back into the wardrobe and ends up not having nay underwear to go to work on Sunday. Therefore on Sunday, for the first time in like a year or so ( I guess) I wore that super short shorts to work. It feels weird at first, but as it progresses, or rather as the hours pass by, it kinda feels good and erotic at the same time. This is especially so when I squat and stand up from squatting. I must have done lotsa squatting and standing up on that day… *winks*

Anyway, there are times when it is just so hard to keep up a straight face when you are feeling what I am feeling then. Harlie dropped by to return me the DVD she borrowed. She asked why I looked stress. Well, Harlie. I am not feeling stressed. Just trying hard to keep a straight face. Kwang Kwang Kwang.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Freezing



...That is what i am feeling right now. Almost close to 5 hours in the Avid Editing suite. Deadline for DocPro: Next week Wednesday, at 1500hrs. I am sooo gonna die!!!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I gave up



I tried. And I tried. But...sigh..i still can't work the flash animation out. This sucks!

Getting in touch with MY Readers



Yes. I know. It has been weeks since I had been on hiatus. Just like debates. *looks at Kimmy* okie okie! I’ll come down for debates session soon. Like real soon. Next week maybe. * gives the sheepish looks*.

Actually a lot has been happening. And without u knowing it, I have been using the blog to bitch abt certain individualz. Itz a real shame dat u missed it. Cos wen this blog was reactivated, I kinda deleted some of the posts. Can’t believe that I am that nice! *looks around* I am nice NOW okie….

So the Ides of March went pass. It was a great success I tell u. Some seniors went up to me and say that they are proud of me. All I could say to them was that I was blessed with some dedicated workers and casts and crews. The success of Ides of March hinges on these people!

A conversation I had the night I slept over at Adik Maman’s house. ( no $$ to go home mah).

Adik: Abang. Thank You.
Adi: Thank me for?
Adik: For approving Ides of March back then. Even though you were sceptical, you still took the risk and showed support for the production.
Adi: Hei. And I am glad I did that.

Thanks Audrey, Adik, Wan and Dayanna for those encouraging words. I dried a lot that day. Cos your words meant so much to me. All this while I thought I did a sucky job. But you guyz convinced me wrong. Thank You!

And thank you to Fadhil and JY for giving me the opportunity to be up here, even though some of your comm members were not approving of it. Even when I told you that I am not the right candidate, you still thrust the responsibility to me, and I hope till now, I have not disappointed you both. And once again thank you for the trust!

Okay. Here it is as usual from other productions, my honorary list of thank yous. I shall attempt to thank everyone, including the soldiers (pls forgive me if I forgot to mention your names, cos unlike previous productions, this one has lotsa names)

So here it goes..*drum rolls*

Shaiful- Thank you for sharing your ideas and your script with PSF. Thank you for taking care of the casts when I am not able to. PSF will be losing one of itz greatest assets come this March 2006….

Leonard: My co-production manager. It was one hell of a ride. Lotsa issues but somehow we managed to put is aside and work towards common goal. I dun know if I should say that it has been a pleasure working with u, but I guess, we learnt a lot from this. And I hope it has been beneficial for u as it has been for me.

Joy Wong- Thank you so so much. I dun think I could ever repay you for what you have done for us. From vocal coach to being a mother to the casts and crew for the Ides of March. Joy seriously, I owe u big time!! Btw, is there any chance u can coach my vocal? Nyeh heh. Shhh…dun tell anyone…. I shy…


Bang Wenfu- It is just really too bad that I din get a chance to work really closely with you. But ur work radiates magical aura. Wait. You are the MAGIC!

Wong Chee Wai- IF Wenfu is magic, you are a god sent MIRACLE. Yes. Never would have thought we could have done the Ides of March, if not for you and your magical touches. No amount of cash could ever convey how thankful I am towards whatever that you have done for PSF. Thought it might not have that pleasurable for u, I do hope that we will see you more often in the near future. We have lots to learn from you!!

Wan- Despite all the stress and anger and all the negative thing u had to go through, you still pull it off in the end. Love u Wan!! Just hope to see you in a different role in the next production, say acting?

Saravanan- My Hide It comrade! Despite saying no to helping out in Ides of March, you still came down to help. Thanks man! Remember to book music room hor! Nyeh heh! Am looking to re-doin Hide It with ya buddy!!

Zulkifli Yusof_ The lights person. Too bad. Din get a chance to talk to you. Thanks for ur help!

Skye- Thanks for you contributions for posters after posters! Coming up…December production. Better think of a new design hor!

Audrey Teo- Even though you are stressed, you are relentless in contributing to PSF. Thanks A LOT. And guess what? I din forget to thank you this time!!!

Harlie- Thanks for being the extra hands and working harder than I did for Ides of March. If your parents need any confirmation to ur whereabouts, ask them not to shy shy to call me k. Wahahaha. Cik! Harlie is in skul! Really! Doin Ides of March…Props and costumes! Wahahaha! And thanks for those shoulders for me to cry on. Rashad is one lucky bugger! Nyeh heh!

Rashad- Yes. The malay is improving. And so is the singing..more expressive. Thanks for being the cast and the crew at the same time. Thanks for not shying away from the tonnes of work. Thanks for the xtra hard work u did during the 4 days, from the pre- production to post production! You rock! PSF will be dull without ur zaniness around!

Aishah- The ever multi talented girl! Thanks for sharing your talents with us. Thanks for ur dedication even through the post production process of cleaning up. Am really hoping to work with u in other productions in the near future…tu pun kalau you agree? Nyeh heh!

Taufiq and Khamal- The power duo who always spread laughter around on set and off set. Thanks for the lameness. It help to chest away the stress. And Taufiq, will you agree to be the new teacher in lameness??

Sam Salleh- My inspiration to working hard. My drive to achieve more than what I imagined possible. Salleh…u went against all odds. And I am very proud to have you as a member of the club. Maucks!

Danielle- When I think of you, I always remember one thing u said to me: “I din’t know you are the president. Why don’t you speak more.” Well. Now that you have gone through the whole 4 months with PSF. Wouldn’t you agree that less means more? Hee hee. Anyway, hope you will get out of the post production blues as exams are nearing. I want you not to only excel in Ideas of March. I want you to excel in ur studies too. Graduate. Then go kick some butts in the theatre industries!

Dhaniah- Hmmm… Didn’t really get to know you that well. But to tell u the truth, I am one of ur fan. And wen u sang up there, iw as so totally moved by ur performance. Thanks for sharing ur talents with us!

Clara- Have always enjoyed working with u. Since from newswriting to featurewriting when u r the sub editor and I am the editor, and now me the production manager and u r the cast. Am hoping to have lot more opportunity of collaboration. * looks at Francis* It is purely work k. Hee hee!

Suelastria- like you, I have also been wanting to sing on stage. The difference is that you have the courage to voice it out. Your courage, I admire. Your heart, I admire more. Always there when you are needed. Thank you so much! Keep following your dreams k!

Shaheen- Though it was a very last minute arrangement, you had no qualm in taking the challenge. Thank you so much! *hugs* Am hoping to see you in a bigger role next time, no? *winks*

Kai Ying- Kinky. Thank you for the jokes and the smiles you spread everyday. Thank you for the effort you took in coming from NUH all the way to skul. Thank you!

Tammi- Hello Tammi!!! You rock big time!!! Thanks first of all for the effort in trying to make me have a straight hair! Waha! Thanks for the eye liner. I have so much to thank you for…that I don’t know where to start. Waha!

Zana- It’s a shame that we only talk more often towards the end of Ides of March. Ugh! Cos you are really funny!! Am gonna miss all ur funni-ness. Just like Danielle, I hope you get over the post production blues soon, and do well for ur exams. And then kick some ass in the theatre industry!

Yihan- The man of the show. Waha. Hope all the advices I have given so far have been useful for ur newswriting. Am hoping to work with u on other productions dude!

Josiah- Dude. Thanks for agreeing to act for us at the last minute. Hope you have enjoyed it and will not shy away in future productions!!

Kai Quan- thanks for ur hard work and dedication…an asset to be treasured!

Amar- Thanks for your patience and your dedications. Hope to see you in future productions also!

Tabby- From being a cast, to vocal coach to a mother to a crew in helping getting the props ready. To being a caring friend who always ask if I am feeling alright. Tabby… All I can say is thank u. Cos even a million dollar couldn’t repay u for wat u have done for the club. Am greatly indebted to u. Hope things will work out fine for u…

Jiayuan- I know it is frustrating to be doing all the shit work for the club even after you graduate. I really appreciate what you have done for the club and I hope I have made you proud with the Ides of March and I also hope that whatever objectives you seniors have set for the club has been achieved. I really can’t repay for what yopu have done for the club. It is just too mucht o even start calculating and putting it in this limited space I call blog. But rest assure of one thing, the rise of this club is not possible if not for you and Dhil. If not for the both of u, drama enthusiasts like me would not know where to express ourselves in NP. Thank you both so much! Muacks! Let’s hope for more success for the club k!

Okay. They say, save the best for last. Right now, I have two special person to thank.

Eddy- Though on the board, they only say that you are my secretary, I say you have been more than just that. A caring friend who is always there when I need her shoulder to cry on, and when I need her hugs, she will always be there. A dedicated person in the club. Gosh. I felt so blessed that I have u in my board of comm members. The next incoming comm members have no idea what they are missing out this coming March 2006!

Adik Rahman- Thank you so much! You kept saying that I am your pillar for me to lean on. Little did you know that you have been the pillar I have always leaned on for the past 11 months since I got to know you. Thank you so much for ur dedication and ur LOVE. And of course your shoulder!!! Yes. The shoulders I always rest my head on to cry. Thank You!

p.s: You cast and crew of Ides of March have always been my pride. The cast… you gave so much that it totally drove me to work harder for the production. And just so that you know, it really hurts to see you guyz cried during that day with the HUGE FIGHT. It hurts so much that I broke down in front of Tabby. Sorry you had to witness that Tabby!! Am gonna miss you guyz so badly.

p.s: Adik Maman…thanks for comforting me during the night of Ides of March when I was having post production blues and was like crying my eyes out.

p.s: Audrey..those words you said, moved me so much that I broke down in front of the crowd. None the less, thank you. I shall store what u said in a special compartment in my brain. Nyeh heh

p.s: Cast and Crew of Ides of March, do come down to clubhouse onb Thursday at 6. Got some important stuff to settle!!

Sunday, July 31, 2005

test test test

You will keep seeing this for the nest one month



At least, whenever i update this blog, that is.


Yes. Come come support leh. Musical adaptation of Julius Caesar hor. Dun play play. Each tickets hor is charge at $8, and it will be at Ngee Ann Polytechnic Convention Center, on 19th August 2005. Bring along friends and aunties and mothers and fathers and in-laws and other families k!

For more info, you can scroll further and read more...

Poly Stage Factor (PSF)
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Blk 73, #02-05
535 Clementi Road
Singapore 599489

For Immediate Release
8th July 2005

FIRST EVER MUSICAL ADAPTATION OF JULIUS CAESAR

PSF will be holding a first ever musical adaptation of Julius Caesar, The Ides of March (IOM), on August 19 and will be held in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Convention Centre.

The idea of the musical was conceived in December 2004, and now, after 7 months of gruelling work and with over 20 cast members from different courses in Ngee Ann Polytechnic (NP), PSF looks set to turn this idea into reality.

“When we first started on this project, we held a campus wide audition. This is to give students from the different courses an opportunity to have a taste of working in the theatre industry,”Adi, President of PSF, said.

PSF is also confident of selling off all its 1000 tickets priced at $8 each. “We have Mr Bang Wenfu and Mr Kang Chee Wai, both of whom are widely known in the industry, working for us. Judging from the way things are going, I believe the performance is one of quality and I don’t see why we would not be able to sell off all our tickets,” Adi said.

Since its revival in 2003, PSF has put up a production, “Straight Time: Shut Up! And Watch the Show” in June 2004. Due to popular demand, the production was put up for the second time in September 2004, of which all proceeds went to the President’s challenge fund. Apart from plays, PSF has also organised two gigs, Musik Arts 2003 and Musik Arts 2005.

End

For more information on PSF or booking of tickets, please contact:

President of PSF/ Production Manager
Muhammad Mahadi (Adi) 91080597

Vice- President of PSF/ Playwright/ Director
Muhammad Shaiful Bahrin 96464115

Production Manager/ Director
Leonard Sim 98521759

Chanced upon this article



Yes. I chanced upon this article while surfing around for issues for my ethicl dilemma. My only comment to it is that it is badly written. Plus with all the rap that Bala guy gave to the gay community, i think such an article would only aggravates matter...


SO BAD, SO SAD

Joyce Lim
742 words
6 June 2005
The New Paper
English
Copyright 2005, Singapore Press Holdings Limited

HE had sex everywhere - at staircases, in cars, parks and public toilets.

Clarence (above, not his real name) is gay and just 16 years old. He decided he was gay when he was 12 and has led a reckless lifestyle since.

He has slept with multiple male partners, too many to remember.

'When I first discovered I was gay, I became very wild. I had sex once or twice a week and I would change partners monthly. Once, I even did a threesome in a hotel in Orchard Road,' he said.

Clarence is a typical example of the gay teens who are worrying counsellers with their wild ways.

Clarence wouldn't think twice about having sex with strangers.

PLENTY OF TAKERS

'If the person is very good-looking and I like him, I would have sex with him even on our first meeting,' he claimed.

And he is never short of partners. With his big soulful eyes and boyish smile, Clarence - who has pop-star looks typical of Chinese boy bands - said matter-of-factly that picking up sex partners is a breeze.

He admitted he had unprotected sex until last year when he found out more about Aids.

Most of Clarence's partners are older and they are usually the ones who guide him in sex.

'They never force me to do anything that I don't want to do,' said Clarence.

He started using a condom only recently when some of his friends urged him to.

Like many others who indulge in unprotected sex, Clarence does not think that he would be a victim of the deadly virus.

He has yet to go for an HIV test.

'I suppose I'll go for the test one of these days with my friends,' said Clarence.

The ex-EM3 student from a neighbourhood school is currently working as a salesman and will be re-taking his O-level examinations at the end of the year.

He said his father is a drug addict and he was raised single-handedly by his mother.

Last year, his mother moved out of their 3-room HDB flat to live with her boyfriend. And his older brother moved out after he got married.

Having the flat to himself makes it even easier for Clarence to engage in sex with other men.

'After my mother moved out, I told her that I am gay. She did not appear shocked. I guess she knows that she can't control me,' said Clarence.

He recalled his first sexual experience at age 12.

'I went to a classmate's house to use the Internet,' recalled Clarence. 'I discovered my friend had been chatting in the gay chatrooms.

'That day, my friend chatted up a 15-year-old and arranged to meet him at Bugis Junction the following day. He asked me to accompany him and I agreed out of curiosity.'

But Clarence's classmate couldn't make it the next day and Clarence went ahead to meet the older boy on his own. The older boy brought along a friend who was 28.

'We hung out at a fastfood restaurant. A few hours later, the older guy suggested that we go to his home to surf the Internet,' recalled Clarence.

'We went, but the younger guy left early. I didn't realise that it was too late to go home and there wasn't any public transport available then.

'So when the guy suggested that I stay over for the night, I agreed.'

That night, Clarence had sex with a man for the first time.

'I wasn't scared when he reached out to touch me in bed,' said Clarence who was then convinced that he is gay.

After that night, Clarence visited Internet chatrooms frequently to chat with gay men, often meeting them later for sex.

As he grew older, he turned to nightspots for sex partners. Even though he is underaged, Clarence claimed he has managed to sneak into popular clubs.

With his good looks, Clarence is often the target of older gay men.

'People usually approach me, be it at the gym, swimming pool or The Heeren,' he said.

'Very often the older men would shower me with expensive gifts like the latest handphones or treat me to dinners at luxury hotels. My friends are very envious.'

Has he ever thought of turning back?

'Yes, but I can't,' replied Clarence.

An inside fron frenster's horoScope



Someone you've been amazingly fond of for some time will suddenly let you know that the feelings are extremely mutual. What should you do about it? Well, for starters, pick up your jaw and let yourself grin. Saying something appropriate wouldn't hurt, either -- something along the lines of 'me, too,' for example. You might also think of where to have dinner tonight. You'll need to keep up your strength if you're going to keep someone this startling entertained.

Am taking a break



…from scriptwriting and admin work and reading news. I want to blog now. Sometimes it is interesting to note how helpful a blog can be. Like for example, when you are really pissed with that arsehole or bitch, and you feel like screaming at him/her, but you know you can’t cos it will so totally botch the project, and you know there is no one you can turn to bitch about it cos you know news travels very fast, somehow blog is your solution. Yes. You can just rant on and on and on, of course anonymously putting the word someone instead of the real names, for fear of the google search and yahoo search and what-have-you-not. Blog. You one step solution to your bitching problems.

If you are the creator of a blog, how much would you be paying me for that 1 minute advertisement?

Nyeh heh. Moving on, did I tell you that I was given the honour of telling SOMEONE that she was dismissed. Yes. Somehow, no one wants to take that unpleasant task. So I took it. Not my first time anyway. That is how I got the tag: Tackless and Ruthless and what-have-you-not.

Let me ask you one question: Will you tell a friend that you’re expecting his best friend to come over when you didn’t even invite his best friend over in the first place? Dumb right? But it was shocking at the same time at what people would do to attract certain individuals over in the absence of another person. This may sound confusing. But then again, read the first paragraph of my entry!

Harlie and me talked yesterday. 100% MALAY. We were talking about how we are worried if we can’t find a job after graduation. That sucks. And I was thinking. 23. graduate at 24. to have no work at 24. Somehow, signing on seems to be a lucrative thing to do. Sigh. $30,000 marriage. House. No CPF. No savings. HOW?! HOW?! HOW?!

Ugh!

And mum seems to keep rambling on and on about local university and such. Malaysia- the dreamland for media practitioners?


Media Law class will resume next week. I don’t seem to be able to recall anything. Shucks!

ArrGGHHHhhh!!!!!


Fuck!!!!

Okay.

Feeling better now.

On with work!

p.s: Loving you more…

p.s: Aiyuan ah…I miss you too…

Friday, July 29, 2005

Coorection!



Yes. There has been a mistake in the news release. It is supposed to be August 19 and not 29. Take note pple! And do get your tickets fast!

Do you realize something?



Things usually happen at the wrong time. Like for example, when you have so much time, you find yourself with nothing to do. then when you don’t have time, works just piled up on you. then when you have the ka-ching, you don’t feel like eating. But when you are broke, you start craving for the weirdest food and you became hungry 24-7. BTW, would like to thank my ADIK for lending me that dollar to fill up my tummy yesterday. Thank you bro! Love ya! Muacks! Thanks to JY oso for the 20 cents. Waha!

Rehearsal was superb yesterday. Everyone gave their 100% and I LOVE the songs. I believe I owe an overdued thank you to TABBY for taking the initiative in assembling the casts on MONDAY and make them practice vocals. To the casts…you guyz rock big time. Thanks for all the efforts. Like Shai said… let’s carry this 2 notches higher, though I feel why stop at just 2 notches when I know you guyz can pump it up to many more notches higher. Nyeh heh.

p.s: Pls be cautious with your attitude. The reason why most of us are still talking to you is not because we enjoyed your working style, it is because we still see you as a friend. Don’t take that for granted!

p.s: I’ll be the editor for next week’s TV Journ production. Stress!! On a side note (wait…isn’t this already a side note?! KWANGKWANGKWANG!), pls do come down to Canteen 1 at 1630hrs next Thursday and give my news programme support k!

p.s: And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway


p.s: Am missing sumone very badly…..

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Come Come Support lah...





Yes. Come come support leh. Musical adaptation of Julius Caesar hor. Dun play play. Each tickets hor is charge at $8, and it will be at Ngee Ann Polytechnic Convention Center, on 19th August 2005. Bring along friends and aunties and mothers and fathers and in-laws and other families k!

For more info, you can scroll further and read more...

Poly Stage Factor (PSF)
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Blk 73, #02-05
535 Clementi Road
Singapore 599489

For Immediate Release
8th July 2005

FIRST EVER MUSICAL ADAPTATION OF JULIUS CAESAR

PSF will be holding a first ever musical adaptation of Julius Caesar, The Ides of March (IOM), on August 19 and will be held in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Convention Centre.

The idea of the musical was conceived in December 2004, and now, after 7 months of gruelling work and with over 20 cast members from different courses in Ngee Ann Polytechnic (NP), PSF looks set to turn this idea into reality.

“When we first started on this project, we held a campus wide audition. This is to give students from the different courses an opportunity to have a taste of working in the theatre industry,”Adi, President of PSF, said.

PSF is also confident of selling off all its 1000 tickets priced at $8 each. “We have Mr Bang Wenfu and Mr Kang Chee Wai, both of whom are widely known in the industry, working for us. Judging from the way things are going, I believe the performance is one of quality and I don’t see why we would not be able to sell off all our tickets,” Adi said.

Since its revival in 2003, PSF has put up a production, “Straight Time: Shut Up! And Watch the Show” in June 2004. Due to popular demand, the production was put up for the second time in September 2004, of which all proceeds went to the President’s challenge fund. Apart from plays, PSF has also organised two gigs, Musik Arts 2003 and Musik Arts 2005.

End

For more information on PSF or booking of tickets, please contact:

President of PSF/ Production Manager
Muhammad Mahadi (Adi) 91080597

Vice- President of PSF/ Playwright/ Director
Muhammad Shaiful Bahrin 96464115

Production Manager/ Director
Leonard Sim 98521759

What’s up?



Been feeling rather tired and lethargic lately. My eyes are burdened with bags. Am replaying what a reporter of CTV said last week in my mind :I have tried the stimulator myself. It should have been I have tried the simulation myself.

And if you didn’t know, I have got myself back into the gym last Monday. And found this phallic symbol there…



Plus, MSN has screwed me over. They deleted all my fucking pictures. Uhh… not literally. The fucking part I mean. But I guess you would have known that by now.



Anyway forget about that for now. I just need to ask you one question. Don’t you think I look good in this picture? To JY: it has been ages since we took a picture together, no?



This is the only picture from KL that I could load at the moment….

Hallelujah!!



God knows how, but i managed to find all my previous entries from June all the way till early July. For those who haven't read, Good luck in catching up. Waha!

p.s: The problem with this is that i forgot which entry is posted at which date. Kwang Kwang KWang!!!

From my point of view



The followings are my points of view,

1. When in doubt, please do double check. Ever wonder why there is the legal system which allows you to sue or make a lawsuit against someone for defamatory remarks? It is to ensure that you back up you claims with solid evidences and not just PURE ASSUMPTIONS. Once again, I should quote Adam: “Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers.” I guess that is because, with assumptions, most fuckers are created. Irresponsible fuckers, if I may add.

2. Back then, B and E are very close while A watched from a far. Speculations happened. B and E fell out. Then speculations died.

Two months later, B and E reconciliated. A and E are becoming very close friends, or should I say best friends? There is no speculations, even though B and E are also very close.

NOW, B and E are very close still, while A watch from a far. Speculations happened. Again!

Notice the similarity of NOW and back then, say 8 mths ago?

I am not trying to insinuate anything here. Let me make that clear. Don’t assume. Just in case you are about to ASSUME, please remind yourself with the fact in #1!

3. I had a talk with sumone. And low and behold, there have been speculations abt me even back then, behind my back!

Speculations of me and harlina ( even when I am with Tasha)
Speculations of me and Maman
Speculations of me and Tasha resurfaced
Speculations about my sexuality.

Note here: I really admire the speculator. Obviously you have too much time in your hands. My suggestions: do sumthing more fruitful. Stop speculating about me, who apparently is a nobody in NP. Maybe you might even wanna use the time to fix your screw up life.

4. In good times, behind those smiles, you backstabbed me and spread malicious speculations which disrupt my friendships with a lot of people. Remember: what goes around comes around. You life might just be screwed even more.

5. I dun need your publicity. I prefer to be just a nobody.


something weird



Yes. Something weird just happened like an hour ago. My third bro (yes, I can hear the whistling and all) woke up and then he plonked himself on my dad’s bed. Then 15 minutes later, he woke up and plonked himself into the cushions in the study room. 15 minutes later, he woke up AGAIN and plonked himself back into his original place, the mattress in the hall. Weird…


something weird II



Talked to Zaid on MSN. Here is a snippet of the conversation…

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
morniing!

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
not working today ah???

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
oh..

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
let me guess

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
u are working

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
skiving

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
wahhahahahah

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
haha bingo

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
i am bored to death too

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
lucky u came in

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
always happy to be of service

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
haha erm tat jus sounded so corny to me right now

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
Muahaha


(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
hei...i AM after all a TYPICAL mat MALA?YSIA

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
always so corny

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
ooo.. u still hold on to tat after so long..

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
nah

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
i was juz reminded of it from an SMS from SUMONE

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
but seriously

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
after the trip to KL

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
yeah

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
malaysians are so corny..it is not funny anymore

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
nyeh heh

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
oh ok

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
i never been out of sg before so i dunno how malaysians really are

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
tot they are very frenly bunch of ppl

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
they are
(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
but they are corny too

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
wahahahhaha

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:

how come u decided to stay with mendaki??
Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
i dunno yet

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
ahhh...

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
how are things between u and other half???

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
wahahhaha

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
haiz pening ah kepala adi..

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
so kepo....

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
i dun have one

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
huh???

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
single mingle now

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
wat happened???

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
maybe it did'nt work out


(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
huh?

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
as in u didn't even know if it's a break up??

Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
it ended silently
Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
sad as it is.. haiz reality bites

(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
uhhh...
(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
wat actually happened??
(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
avoided ur callls??
(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
and din respond to sms??
Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
yea..
Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
so i am like ok..
Wat? When? Who? Where? says:
if tats the way so be it.
(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
huh?
(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
okiez
(No longer a flight virgin) Contradiction Mdm!!!!!! Assumptions are mothers to most fuckers!!!! says:
weird

Final note: Weird….


Hi. I am Sergeant Mahadi…ooops….technically, Corporal Mahadi now. I will be your PSU commander. Yes. You, residents of block 505 will now have no need for panick. If there is any bombing incidence, these four walls will keep you protected. If there is a typhoon, these four walls will keep you protected. If a nuclear or atomic bomb is dropped, you might as well forget about living. If Singapore is drowned under the sea, you can forget about living too. Yes. In this shelter, you are forbidden from bringing in your pets as some of us are allergic to furry animals. No bullshitting either, for I am one of those special people who are allergic to that. If you feel like peeing or shitting, please turn to your left, and you will find the toilets specific to your own need; i.e. men and women have their own designated toilet. That is all the announcement I have for you now. Thank you. this is Corporal Mahadi. Always please to serve you.


Now I need to get a few things off my head. First issue has something to do with the following snippet:


Conclusions of the 1997 NHMRC report The health effects of passive smoking

This report concludes that:

• An estimated 13% of lower respiratory illness in children under 18 months (about 16,300 cases per year) is due to passive smoking
• Children exposed to ETS are about 40% more likely to suffer from asthmatic symptoms than those not exposed
• About 8% of new cases of childhood asthma is attributable to passive smoking (about 46,500 children per year)
• It is estimated that the risk of heart attack or death from coronary heart disease is about 24% higher in people who never smoke but who live with a smoker, compared to unexposed people who never smoke
• It is estimated that people who never smoke and live with a smoker have a 30% increase in the risk of developing lung cancer compared to people who never smoke and live with a non-smoker (leading to about 12 new cases of lung cancer and 11 deaths from lung cancer per year in people who never smoke)
• Passive smoking contributes significantly to the risk of sudden infant death syndrome.

Passive smoking is a health hazard


Mainstream and sidestream smoke both contain a large number of chemical carcinogens and other toxic substances, but undiluted sidestream smoke carries many compounds in far greater concentrations. The particles of sidestream smoke are smaller than those of mainstream smoke, which means that they can be inhaled more deeply into the lungs.
I'm a great believer in civil liberties, but I don't belive anyone has the right to poison someone else. A cigarette is a little toxic waste dump on fire.
Stan Glantz (The Independent, 2001)

A wealth of scientific evidence now exists showing that the breathing of tobacco smoke polluted air by non-smokers can lead to serious harm, such as increased bronchitis, pneumonia and other chest illnesses in children, asthma, lung cancer and cardiovascular disease. This is of course in addition to the well known irritant effects of tobacco smoke to the eyes, nose, throat and airways passages

Taken from: http://www.cancersa.org.au/i-cms?page=1.6.36.368.188

So if u care for ur loved ones, pls do minimize the amt of second hand smoke they breathe in, aightz?

Got some more to copy:

A great event of Western psychology in this century took place in 1900 when Freud published THE INTERPRETATION OF DREAMS. He attempted to demonstrate that the dream had a significant relationship in the chain of mental life within an individual's experience. Taken from www.biomindsuperpowers.com/Pages/Imaginal.html -

It is true that dreams were used by mystics throughout the ages and even studied scientifically by aristocratic gentlemen in the 19th Century, but in general, they had been suppressed as useful or meaningful for nearly a thousand years. Sigmund Freud saw dreams as protecting sleep, and even more, as protecting our deepest desires and fears. By connecting dreams to the operations of the unconscious, he assured their connection to psychology over the next century of development. Taken from http://www.dreamgate.com/dream/library/idx_psychology.htm



Reservist



Anyway, this week has been a swell of a week. Two days of reservist. Bleah. I dun know whether to feel lucky or otherwise. I was posted to the Public shelter Unit, where the reservist duty for one year is only two days. In that two days, all we did was to refresh ourselves with all the first aid knowledge and all the different lifts and stretcher drills. Yes. It’s lessons after lessons, back to back. If you think your lecturers are boring, then you should really try to sit in for one of these lectures done by over bloated officers who are waiting for their days t0o retire. Ugh!

And there was also the dreaded IPPT. Sial lah. Slack liaoz! My performance drop like siao! 2.4 run, clocked at 12.02 minutes. That was like 2 minutes latter than my usual timing! Chin ups only can do 9, a drop of 3. and shuttle run, I clocked 10.3 seconds, which is freaking slow!!! But then again, I managed to pass. So dun need to go for remedial training for 6 freaking Saturdays. Alhamdullillah. Phew! On top of that, got $100 cash come more!

To die or not to die



On Monday, we had the discussion on euthanasia for Ethical Dilemmas. It’s not the debate of whether or not it is ethical to pull the plug for someone that strikes me most. it’s actually one of the question which struck me: “ If your loved one is in bed, in pain or in comma, will you end his/ her sufferings through the means of euthanasia, if it was legalized in Singapore?”

For me, I personally think I will not. Maybe because of religion. And maybe because I know, my loved ones are usually strong in character. I will not want to break that fighter spirit in them. And on top of that, when you love someone to bits, and that someone happens to be down with some form of disease, you will somehow, secretly hope that the doctors will find a cure for it tomorrow, or the week after, or the months after. Heck. Even if it takes years, you will wait and hope still. So, euthanasia is definitely not for me!


Dedication



Dedicated to someone:

I see
That you are not an A student
I see
That you have problems with the big I
I see
You are reckless
I see
You don’t like to be chained
I see and I saw
Through your flaws
I see perfections
Through you flaws
I am assured you’re human
Through your flaws
I fell in love
Through your flaws
I learnt
To accept, to love, to care
Through your love
I learnt
To appreciate.
You are just fine the way you are
The way I knew you
The one I fell in love with.


To that someone:

Something happens that night. Somehow, there are times, when you spoke, I felt that those are not your words. Somehow, I felt that you are speaking on the behalf of a third party. And I will be looking around the room. To find that third party.

And on that night, I saw it. A black figure. My heart almost stopped. That is why, I requested the lightz to be switched on. And the thing was gone. But still my hair stands. And when you tried peeping thru the holes in ur blanket, I thought you felt it too. But I refused to tell u then cos I dun want u to get worried….

p.s: A snake in dreams usually symbolizes sorcery/ black magic… I dun believe in them. So therefore, chances are, it will not turn to reality. So dun worry, aightz!

Some ramblings for the week



I went to school today after Friday prayers only to discover that I didn’t have the clubhouse keys. Therefore, I have decided to just plonk myself in the library. Nope. Not to watch documentaries which I needed to watch for DocPro. I was wondering around, and around and then went into the AV collection only to find MARIAH CAREY’s #1 videos. Woo hoo! Was hyperventilating throughout the whole 79 minutes of footages/ videos. They even include the full version of HONEY!!! And while I was watching the video, two Chinese girls (okie okie ah, quite pretty, but not as pretty as the person I was watching on the TV), approached me to ask if they can join. So I guess I am not the only MARIAH’s fan in NP eh?

Oh yeah. And the uncle was whispering to me to check out the library next week, as they are going to put a new METALLICA’s video. According to the uncle, it is going to be METALICCA’s first documentary. Nyeh-heh!

The reason behind my hatred to get out of school between 4pm to 7 pm



…is simply because;

1. It is freaking crowded. (yes, I am not a big fan of crowds)

2. The crowd usually smoke

3. it is freaking hot and humid, I could literally melt.

The only thing that can make it worst is when I missed the freaking bus and have to wait for 20 more minutes before the next bus comes. BLEAH!

Ageing Population



…is a serious problems faced by most first world countries. There is this huge assumption that the reasons couples don’t get married is because they want to climb up the corporate ladders.

For me, I think most people don’t want to get married. Or for that matter, get involved in a relationship is because SOMETIMES it is just sweeter to just stay in the dating game, the courtship stage.

It is during that stage that most people are the sweetest and promising. It is when they would really work their butts off trying to attract their other half. Once you get into the relationship, there is no more surprises. No more working or trying hard. What used to be promised is forgotten.

I used to know this person. He is a drug addict. When he was courting this girl ah, he really worked his butts off loh. Was willing to go through cold turkey for 10 days just to impress her. But after they got into a relationship hor, he went back to his old ways.

Frustrated? He went for a fix
Pain? He went for a fix
Depress? He went for a fix

He went for a fix for 101 reasons, some of which were really unthinkable and very ORIGINAL.

Then he got caught. Now he is inside the jail, his wife has to work to support two kids. So you see, getting into a relationship could be a scary business. No?

Sometimes



…it can get really frustrating when you tried and you tried to bring out the best in you and people just put you down, concentrating on what you didn’t do.

You tried to cater to all their needs. Keyword is TRY. Yes. You try and try to cater to their needs, but all they did was to bring up all the things that you didn’t, and you knew you couldn’t do( actually they also knew you couldn’t, but somehow, it must have been quite pleasurable for them to rub it in your face of your incapability).

I think I am quite immuned to it now. Cos I got it from many people around me.

Redundancy



…is the word that comes to mind when some people ask me questions which you know are more of commands. Yes. The questions are actually commands which you must follow in order to appease people and avoid disappointments and anger.

I like the way a friend would jokingly put forward a question like “ do you think I am fat?” and then that question will be followed by “ the correct answer is NO”. yupz. That is one of the non-offensive example I could come up with.

Then again, at the end of the day, why even bother to ask the questions. Why not just be straightforward and just structure it into a command? To be politically correct and sensitive, maybe?

Kesilapanku
asyik kelihatan
asyik kedengaran
asyik kau ulangkan...



Rambling…on



My day is officially screwed.

1. Went home in the afternoon, instead of the original plan of staying till night with my family. But the intense need to just break down just got the better of me. And therefore I left.

2. while in the bus, my stomach and head started gave me problems. It was at a bearable level at first till this song came to mind:

Umpama Mimpi Dalam Mimpi

Kenangan bersamamu kasih
Seumpama mimpi di dalam mimpi
Terasa engkau di sisi
Menemaniku saban hari

Pabila kupejamkan mata
Akan terasa hangatnya asmara
Walaupun sekian lama
Telah terpadam cinta kita

Luka yang tak terasa
Mengalair darah yang tak berwarna
Bagai jeritan tanpa
Suara

Tangisan dalam ketawa
Sedu sedan menjadi syair cinta
Terasa ingin ku sentuh
Bayanganmu

Walau hanya seketika cuma
Agar hilang rindu dan dahaga
Agar pulih semangat kasih dan mesra
Seperti baru kenal cinta

Kenangan bersamamu kasih
Membakar gedung fikiranku
kiniTerasa hidupku ini
Umpama mimpi dalam mimpi
Umpama mimpi dalam mimpi



it kept playing in my head over and over again till i thought I was going to die then and there due to suffocation in bus back seat. The fact that I din know the bus changed its route and bringing me to places I have never seen before made me panic, aggravating the whole situation.

At that point of time, I just realised, that I am all alone in the bus and my mum was not there with me to help soothe the pain. My mind just kept calling for her. Over and over again. But at the saem time, I knew she couldn’t hear me. I am thankful she couldn’t. I dun want her to worry for me.

But at the same time, I wanted her to be by my side so badly. I wanted to apologise to her for all the wrongs I did and for all the hurtful stuff I have said. I just dun want to die not being in her arms. I dun want to die alone.

Yes. There I was alone at the back seat of the bus I have not taken for ages, which brought me around places I din know. I thought I was going to die.

Thank god. After 20 minutes of turning around to erid places, it finally arrived in a place I was at yesterday evening. Took bus 30. in which I continued crying cos the pain was really immense. The toll from the pain and the crying must have gotten me soo exhausted that the next thing I knew, someone was waking me up as the bus has already arrived in Boon Lay Interchange. Took 172 then to home….. Feeling blank……


The Spot



Just like the way you used the spot to as a venue of letting out, I used the spot to do some reflections. Yes. I went back to that spot before the sun even rised. And there I was sitting. Whole sleuth of memories flooded me.but I still have no idea of what happened?

p.s: kesilapan ku asyik kelihatan, asyik kedengaran, asyik kau ulangkan…

Thanx Tasha…



for beign the first person to ask me if anything was wrong just now. No. you are not a witch doctor nor a magician that can zap off the pain, but like I say, it is the small signs of care and concern that makes it all better…

Change of song



Sori guyz. needed to change the song momentarily to this malay song. It brings back lots of memories. Maybe and just mayb if I keep refreshing this page and listening to the song over and over again, and then go to sleep, I might juz wake up feeling better.

Fished up week



Okiez. There was the long talk. It was hurtful. It was on Tuesday night. It is now Thursday. I still have yet to talk to both of you since then. It was your birthday yesterday. What’s the point of me trying to please, trying hard to appease when I know I will end up unappreciated. All these years, all the suspicions, all the silence. Just waiting for the time when I will break free.

To baby, thanx for being there… nice speech, but it ain’t enough to make me change my stance. Pls dun make me choose ni more k baby! Wahahha! Luv ya always! Muacks!

The librarians should be shot dead for being such “helpful bitches”. Yes. They have misplaced the freaking War Photographer. So fuck you bitches! Actually me just looking for an avenue to let out the frustrations due to the quiz which I can’t do…well, I can’t answer most of the questions. Doc Pro! Fuck you Mc Turk! Ugh!

On the bright side, got 18/20 for MedLaw. Finished the interview and footages for TV Journ.

To Harlie, let’s kick some butt and score another A for the accessed tutorial for MedLAw today aightz!

p.s: Some people just ain’t knowing the word thank you. yes. When given good gestures, they just turn away with their fucked up attitude. But then again, some just blogged negative things when treated with good gestures. Sigh!

p.s: It came as a surprise that you find us drifting away. Cos seriously, I ain’t feeling anything. Guilty speaks? Mayb? But knowing you, I dun think the word guilt even exist in your dictionary. Not that there is anything wrong with that. I mean, hei, even I dun feel guilty. My motto: No regrets, behind every misfortune, there is always some blessings, for the world is far, for God is fair.

note



Your short fuse is getting a little bit too often, a tad unbearable. and i tot mine was bad. With the coming weeks, when works are piling, my temper will be shortened tremendously and i will be this temperamental person! two short fused pple dun make good combo. but i will try to curb it. but then again, it takes two to tango.

Tsunami



“…hit my kitchen today. A mini tsunami if I may add. No earthquake though. Casualties include a thousand, or maybe a million ants (lost of body counts), two to three cockroaches and a lizard.

Analysts believe that the tsunami was caused by bad pipes that lead into the washing machine. The flood-after-maths was about 2 inches high, damaging properties such as wooden cupboards and chairs and a fan.

Rescuers, which include me and my dad, have managed to salvage and restore things back to normal in less than an hour. Analysts commented on the cool headed characteristic of both party in their rescue missions.” - Reported by Adi.

Yes. My kitchen was flooded when the pipes that lead the water into my washing machine burst. Though things were in a mess, I am glad that it happened. After two days of cold war, it all ended with a collaboration to rescue equipment/ appliances in the kitchen. After the kitchen was restored, we had a long talk and have managed to more or less straightened things out, though I can still feel that tiny bit of friction left.

p.s: bumpy week but am glad that we could still work things out

p.s: thanks adik…for the de-stressing Friday night out….

p.s: I don’t know if it is becoming a trend, but it seems to me nowadays, people like to use old materials to bitch. Like for example, you bitch about someone’s insecurity when it has been so well established that the whole world already know of that person’s insecurity. Ugh! If you want to bitch, just do all of us a favour. Go and research for new materials can? Don’t recycle all those passé stuff ah…