Sunday, October 30, 2005

5 minutes ago

..i just finished baking my last tray of cookies of the last cookies. I wanted to call it the $50 cookies cos all the ingredients add up to almost $50. But then again, I thought a better name for it is PATIENCE. Yes. I have decided to call these last cookies PATIENCE. Do you have any idea how much PATIENCE you need to ground a kilogram of almond manually just so that you can use it in these PATIENCE cookies? And do you have any idea how much PATIENCE you need to see all the cookies get baked, one tray at a time, 22 minutes per tray and 20 trays in all? You have no idea how much more PATIENT I have become after the ordeal, or rather IMPATIENT. I did not sleep. My freakin laptop is not operational and I am stuck with this window millennia equipped with office 2000 piece of desktop which is riddled with virus I can hardly pronounced or even annunciate!!

I need a throat. No. Not deep throat. That might just cost you a bomb (tried to tell JY, but she didn’t believe it either, thinking it was a joke, or rather I was joking. I am dead serious. Deep throat-ing me will cost you a bomb!). But then again, that is besides the point. I need a throat, which I could slash and cut to pieces, see the blood ooze, and with it my rage. It really amazes me that I am able to contain all the rage in me, and still write out, or rather type out this entry.

On the other hand, I just feel like crying cos I am emotionally volatile right now. And the movie “Meet Joe Black” isn’t helping much either. I wish for a phonecall now. But then again, I might not even receive it…

Wednesday, October 26, 2005


… was the sound you could hear from the toilet just about 5 minutes ago. The good news is, I think I have recovered from my one week old diarrhoea. When I shit this time, I could see that my shit is long and twirly and best of all, it is SOLID. No more watery bowels!

Anyway, did I tell you I did something which I would have termed “stooped” in normal circumstances. Abt two days ago, I went to break fast with my mum and dad. Just the three of us. And my mum passed a remarks which was like “Why do you always dress shabbily nowadays?” Actually, I got jaded of dressing up. Yes. Three years of being in Mass Communication, you can actually get sick of dressing up. But I still don’t mind dressing down, as much as anyone would want me… er-herm. You know what I mean. YES. ESPECIALLY YOU! Anyway, of course I din say that to her. Instead, I was complaining to her of how my shoes are all either spilt or AWOL-ed. And that I no longer have any shoes right now and that is why I have to settle to wearing slippers and lookin, in her own words.. “SELEKEH”.

And guess wat? My father upon hearing that, offered to get me a sandal. After breaking fast, the three of us went on sandal hunting. None caught my eyes, except one brown TEVA sandal, which felt velvet-y. it felt Ooh-sooo-nice. But I guess the orice was nice too. $179 for a pair of freakin sandal. I put those sandals back. I just felt bad for askin dad to pay for such expensive stuff. When he asked why I put it back, I just told him that I wanted to look for other cuts first. If any caught my eyes, I will inform him ASAP to buy it for me… but I will make sure it will not cost more than $50. If not, I might as well get myself a pair of shoes.

Yes. I know. Offer only comes like once in a blue moon. And I didn’t take it. On a brighter note, I am glad Adik Maman’s appeal has been accepted. Yay!

p.s: Somehow, my cookies this year don’t taste as nice. One possibility could be because I was too jaded with all the bakings and cookies. But then again, it could also mean I am losing my touch on baking…*GASP*

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Juz a short update

…on what happened 2 days ago. I was having this combo of diarrhoea and continuous vomiting for almost one week. My stomach hurts a lot cos it was empty, or at least almost empty. My back hurts. My head hurts. I guess this was all due to the combo thingy.

On top of that, I got home late. On a cab. By the time the cab was about to reach my place, I had to ask the driver to turn in to the carpark. The driver had to even help me get to the lift lobby and pressed the lift for me. He got up to the sixth floor with me and get the money from mum.

After reading all the above description of what happened two days ago, how do you feel? Nonchalant?

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Horoscope from

Making a choice between two attractive offers has never been something that's especially disturbed you -- especially when you've been responsible for arranging each of them. That's what's on your plate, so prepare yourself. Oh, and if someone comes along who seems eager to pretend they're exactly what you're looking for, don't feel obligated to let them know you're on to them. Not right away, at any rate. You've got more important things to think about.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005


..the links on the side bar. Finally the link to my Baby Maman's blog is fixed!


...finally am using the song which Tasha have taken the trouble of uploading it to her little webspace.

After more than

23 years of celebrating Hari Raya, I am seriously jaded of it. Don't feel like celebrating it this year...

It’s 5 plus

…in the morning and I am sure by now, you feel like exclaiming “Thank God!” or “Hallelujah!” or other wordy thanks to God for now you see an update on Before you ACTUALLY do that, I think it would be more appropriate to thank me for taking the time off to just update you and only YOU on the latest development in my life.

Yes. It has been close to a month that you last saw anything from me. The truth is, I do have a life. Yes. However, when it comes to choosing what goes in here or what shouldn’t is another issue altogether. There were good times, and then again there were some not so good times. Friends down with appendix (is that how you spell it?), or rather just one friend that I know of. Broken relationship, engaged no more and suicidal tendencies just sky rocketed. It’s once again that time of the year. End of year phenomenon. But then again, those are just what I am surrounded with.

Some people tend to notice that I only update when I have something bitchy or angry to blog about. However, you have been much of an avid reader, I am sure you know the degree of truth in this.

Some people say my entries have been quite erratic. I do have to admit that some were. This could probably be due to the nature of an AQUARIUS MAN. This could also be me satisfying the stereotype of an AQUARIUS MAN. It has been quite a pleasure to feed one’s speculations/ stereotypes:

Debates have been fun while it lasts. I don’t even know now when training is. The last I heard was that it has been changed to Tuesdays. I don’t know who made the change. All I know, it clashed with PSF sessions. So, I am sure you know where my priority lies.

School has been okay. Passed all subjects and scored my first AD! On the other hand, I have another D to add to the certificate: MEDIALAW sucks! *Looking forward to three days per week next semester.

Drama was exhilarating lately. Did dance steps. Script done. plans set. Target audience set. Look out for the OFFICE people. And important to take note: Be nice to PSF and you might just get a special invitation to our latest production due in December 2005! Yes. this production is going to be slightly different. No tickets. Just invites only. *winks*

Farah is working with Eaglevision. Everyone: Start puking blood now. Yes. Eaglevision, the land where you still might just find dinosaurs: P2 computers running on Window 98. God bless the people working there.

…there you go. Erotic enough for your taste bud? I mean, ERRATIC enough for your taste bud? Waha!

Have I told you of my experience in JB? I guess not. Well. Here is the thing. It was 4 plus in the afternoon. Me, mum, my aunt and uncle and my cousin were all waiting for SBS 160 to take us to Teck Whye. Then came along this Chinese guy who suddenly kept smiling at me. He was waiting next to my uncle, who surprisingly made conversation with the Chinese guy. I suspected that he is gay. 5 minutes later, my uncle was giving him the disapproving look. I can hardly hear what they were talking about, but here is ONE POSSIBLE conversation that they might have had…

Chinese Guy (CG): Hey. You see that guy. I think he is cute.
Uncle: Which one?
CG: The one wearing the black t-shirt and carrying a backpack.
Uncle: Oh that one ker? That one my nephew lah sia.
CG: Cute
Uncle: I used to look a lot like him sia
CG: The what happened now?
Uncle: (looks at Chinese Guy with a disapproving look) (inside heart) Puki Mak Kau punya laki bodoh!!

Kwang Kwang Kwang. Oops. Termaki pulak time ramadhan nie. Translation: Oops! Accidental vulgarity in the month of Ramadhan.

p.s: I love you… and I know that you know that I know that you know.

Friday, October 14, 2005

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.