Thursday, May 24, 2007

Bitchy isn’t it someone?



Adi: If you think Singapore is small, the GAY WORLD is smaller. Everyone knows Each other. Just say a name and you can hear a click of the tongue and a sleuth of things will spray out like the geyser, like a forest fire being ignited by a firefly. Maybe that is a little extreme, but if you have experienced it, nothing can be larger than life for gays.

Cut to:

Ad: Adi. I think I want to go straight.
Adi: Really?
Ad: Yes. I am so sick of the gay world. Everyone is so fake. And everyone backstabs each other.

Cut to:

An: You know Adam?

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D: Adam from Yew Tee?

Cut to:

H: Who doesn’t know Adam?

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R: I don’t like him.

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Adi: Why?

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An: He is a good actor. No one can act as well as him.
Adi: Tell me something I don’t know. I have known him for 7 years.

Cut to:

D: Yeah. I met him in December last year.
Adi: Really?
D: Yeah. He has moved into his new house with his boyfriend.
Adi: He has a house. That’s cool. But he hasn’t yet reach 35 what. Mana boleh beli rumah?

Cut to:

H: Yeah. I heard a lot about him.
Adi: I didn’t know he is that well-known.

Cut to:

R: It’s not that I don’t trust you. But he seems so determined. I am just scared one day you will fall for him?
Adi: I already fallen for you, I don’t think I would fall for him. I want to fall for him, I would have done that years before I even know you. Cos he has been asking for years now, but I just keep on rejecting him.
R: I am not talking about you. I trust you will not fall for him. But he seems so determined. What if one day he puts a spell on you?
Adi: You actually believe in that?

Cut to:

An: Do you think I look like him?
Adi: Yeah. Up to the way you speak.
An: Yeah. He keeps trying to imitate me.

Cut to:

Ad: I don’t know why people like to follow my style?
Adi: Siapa sak?
Ad: All those kewats ah.
Adi: How they follow your style?
Ad: My style of clothings, the way I speak… Almost everything. That is why I think I want to quit the gay circle.

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An: He is always trying to like challenge me. Like the way I look and speak. He always ask around other people to see who is better; him or me.
Adi: I don’t know. I find that he is starting to look ridiculous. He is too skinny now, and what’s up with the braces?

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Adi: I saw his collections of watches in his rooms. All branded. I think he purposely did that to show me how well he’s doing, even without me.
Z: You went to his room?
Adi: Yes.
Z: That is all I need to know.
Cut to:

Ad: We have known each other for 5 years. But we never did anything with one another.
Adi: Cos we are just friends. And I treasure our friendship.
Ad: How come you are sitting there. Come and sit with me on my bed.
Adi: My jeans are dirty ah.
Ad: I don’t mind. It’s like you just know me yesterday.
Adi: Make sure we don’t do anything stupid. I know how it feels to have your other half sleeping around with other people.
Ad: I know my line. I am attached. I won’t do anything foolish.

Cut to:

An: He asked me to get attached with him before. Lucky I didn’t say yes.
Adi: Really? Hmm… He asked me too. And he is apparently very persistent.
An: What you mean he is persistent?
Adi: For 6 years, he would usually ask me out to breakfast with him every year, and every year he pops the question. And every year I reject him, he will withdraw himself and somehow re-appear the next year to ask me the same thing.

Cut to:

H: I think I am falling for you.
Adi: Not again.
H: Why?
Adi: Cos everytime I did a drama production, someone will fall for me.
H: Who?
Adi: when I was with this TeaterVariasi, there is this girl called Jannah who said she loves me. Then when I was in PSF, my X said he fell for me. And now in Wayang Warehouse, you are falling for me.

Cut to:

An: Hilmi got said he fell in love at first sight to me before.
Adi: Really?
An: I think he is the type who always fall for people at first sight ah.

Cut to:

D: Hilmi is always very confused. Can never make up his mind.

Cut to:

H: Daen is also performing?
Adi: Yeah. He said he knows you. So I assumed you know him too.
H: Of course he knows me. And I know him too. It is just that we have not met each other for some times cos I think he is afraid to see me.
Adi: Afraid to see you? Why?
H: (looks at his friends and rolls eyes)
Adi: Siapa yang hutang siapa ni?
H’s friend: He owes Hilmi big time.
Adi: Serious?

Cut to:

An: Zaid falls for people easily. He falls in love with anyone.
Adi: I didn’t know he is like that. All I know is that he confessed to me his love in 2005, and I told him no cos I was already attached at that point of time.

Cut to:

Ad: Zaid told me that you were crazy for him. And he borrowed money from me to buy you ferrero chocolates for valentine.
Adi: Valentine? I was with Rahman on Valentine. And I don’t receive any gifts from Zaid before.
Ad: I don’t know. And he borrowed the money from me to also rebond his hair cos he wants to looks his best for you.
Adi: What?

Cut to:

R: Have you told Zaid that you are attached?
Adi: No. Cos he will tell it to Adam. And Adam will start to ask me lots of questions.
R: But if you don’t tell him, he will keep making advances on you.
Adi: Why are you so insecured?

Cut to:

An: You know Raihan?
Adi: Nope.
An: Raihan is also a dancer like Daen. Anyway, Daen is a flirt. He says “I love you” to almost everyone.
Adi: I could see that.

Cut to:

H: Annuar? You know him?
Adi: No I just met him.
H: He used to be in our circle till..
H’s friend: Dah jangan cocok. Kau ader mata pandang, ader telinga dengar. Then you judge for yourself.
Cut to:

An: I used to have this circle of PLU friends ah. Then I discovered that they tried top backstab me. Cos I think they jealous of what I have.
Adi: Then you broke off with them?
An: There is this one time we went to club together, then I flirt with this ang moh ah. Then the ang moh asked me to his hotel. Then when this group of PLUs found out, they get more jealous of me.
Adi: I don’t get it. Why is it, especially among the malay PLUs ah, it is like a big thing to be attached to an ang moh. What is so good about them?

Cut to:

E: Adi. They have big dicks!
Adi: I am a top, so big dicks or small dicks don’t matter to me.

Cut to:

Adi: So are you still gay?
Ad: Cos I have embraced who I am.
Adi: But I thought you wanted to quit the gay circle?

Cut to:

Q: Don’t you want to settle down and get married?
Adi: I do, but I haven’t found someone who can make me settle down YET.

p.s: I do want to settle down. So if you are FEMALE and SINGLE do drop me a holler on the tag board.

p.s: I have not been updating for so long cos I am tied down to work. I will try my bestest to update.

p.s: To MR ANONYMOUS, don’t worry, I will dedicate an entry for you… DEFINITELY!

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Days of Reservist Training



Well, it’s that time of the year again. It has been three years running now. But it still feels the same nonetheless. But wait, there are some differences actually. Let me just do a little recap of the difference experience in the three years I have been through reservist:

First Year
This is the year that me and Rahman got into a relationship. In fact, when I was called up for reservist that year, it was May. We were into the second month of our relationship. So as you can picture, everything is still oh-so-rosy. I was very anxious about IPPT, cos ever since I was attached to him and ever since I was in poly, I had gained a lot of weight and have not been exercising regularly. I remember praying to god, hoping that he will miraculously increase my strength, speed and whatever it takes to AT LEAST pass the IPPT (even if it means I have to trade for a shorter dick and the end of the day, I would!) Yes! I was that desperate. Just the thought of having to come back for RT is terrifying enough! On top of the anxiety of having to go through IPPT, I remember feeling horrendous cos I was down with lovesickness. I kept thinking about Rahman when I was in camp. I remembered missing him so much! And when he said he had a cramp on the first day, I almost cried cos I felt so helpless not being able to be by his side and comfort him.

At the end of the first day, I remember smiling ear to ear, cos I not only did I manage to pass my IPPT, I passed it with incentives. It’s like graduating with honours kinda concept. So on top of just getting a cert which certifies (hur hur… a cert that certifies) that I passed my IPPT, I also get a hundred dollar cash reward! Woo-hoo!

I also remember that I bought Rahman a rose on the second day and I spent the night at his house. His grandmother was away. So he took the pleasure to cook for me and we slept together. ( at that point of time still no sex yet… cos we thought we didn’t need it at that point of time to spice up our relationship.)

Second Year

This is the year that I broke with Rahman. I remember feeling like shit for the first half of the year. And in case you still didn’t know, I am the type who will stuff myself up when I am depressed. Yes. Some people turned anorexic when they are depress, but I turn out to be the opposite, I eat, A LOT, when I am depressed. So when I had to serve reservist duty, I remember that I was “gemuk macam babi”. I even had the picture to prove it.




This was taken when I was in the production with Wayang Warehouse, which happened in the same month. Here is another picture of me taken also in the same month I was going through my reservist training in 2006.


This is sooo ironic- me beside the man of steel!

Anyway, back to the reservist story, I remember feeling more confident than the previous year of passing my IPPT. Although I was gemuk- macam- babi at that point of time (75 kg to be exact), I remember going to the gym to exercise regularly.

At the end of the first day, I remember feeling upset despite passing my IPPT with a silver. I was disappointed. Sole reason- I was deprived of $200. Yes. I could have gotten a gold if only I ran faster. My 2.4km run was 15 seconds later of that the time required to attain a gold award in IPPT. But I also remember trying to psycho myself to look on the bright side. I mean after all the shitty experience of a crashed laptop, shattered screen, break-up and the i-almost-fail-my-final-year-in-poly experience; an extra $200 is definitely a nice consolation and refreshing turn of fate!

At the end of the second day, I was like happy that I got through the training unscathed.

Third Year

I remember that upon receiving my reservist appointment for this year, I was jumping joyously. Cos I know this means another $200 extra in the bank. Unlike other eyars, there was no hiccups this year, i.e. no incidences of me forgetting to bring helmet or putting my bag in the wrong locker room like previous years. What made me jump higher for joy was that the IPPT standard has been revamped to favour those who are 25years old and above. I was quite sure that I could attain gold, but again I was disappointed. This time around I was 5 seconds late of the time needed to attain a gold award. Nah bei!

I also remember longing to go back to work in Sentosa. I remember missing my beloved colleagues.

On the second day, I was just happy to get home and relax.


After three years of reservist duty I am now looking forward to the next one, and I will make sure I will work my butt to attain the gold award this time around!

p.s: I don’t know if it is the reservist trainings or just me, I just hate this entry cos I felt the writing style sucks big time! Bleah!