Saturday, July 26, 2014

What do you hope to achieve?

There are times when I do ask myself the question- Why? Why the differences in treatment between me and them? Don’t we have the sae blood coursing through us? Could one prophecy from an alim person be the cause of it all? If he is really alim, would he believe that he has the ability to predict the future? After all it was stated in the Quran, that Qada’ and Qadar is in God’s hands; not an alim person’s hands. Sometimes, I no longer know what to feel anymore. There is only numbness in me. The things you said and the things you did—I just wonder, what do you hope to achieve?

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Friday, July 18, 2014


Sometimes, there is really nothing that you could do
But pray
Pray for Gaza. Pray for Malaysia. Pray for children growing up in Singapore.
As you watched the events unfold
You just felt so helpless
Cos there is nothing you could do
But to pray.
And so pray I will.
as I teared
I pray
For safety
For humanity
For strength
But most importantly
I pray that
one day, we will finally know

what peace is. 

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Are We Asleep?

When we are asleep, are we really asleep? Or is it just a physical being? You know… your body goes to sleep but your soul wonders. I am not very good with this kinda philosophical shit, but I believe that when you’re asleep, your mind doesn’t. It is still thinking. It is still reflecting- Reflecting on the job that you have left half way done; thinking about what to eat for tomorrow’s breakfast; reflecting on the fight that you last had. In short, when we do go to sleep, we were never really asleep. We are just resting physically while our minds wonder on the different possibilities; possibilities that we are blinded from when we are conscious. Who says cows can’t fly or that fire is hot? Or that the moon is so far away? These are not facts. They are just what we perceive when we are conscious. So going back to the question—are we really asleep when we are asleep?

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Still Waiting....

And so Germany won. I should have bet my money on them. Maybe then I would have been able to buy a condo and move out. I’ve always wanted to move out so bad. I even thought of getting a “contracted” wife just so that the government would allow me to buy a house and then I could move out even before I reach the age of 35. Those were the days. On a side note, 32 is not that far from 35. Waiting. I still am.

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Random Thought

I want to migrate. Maybe to Krabi. There got many mosques. Got many trans and gays also. No one is there to judge. your sexuality, things you do behind closed door, is between you and god. As long as you don't pull others to join you or harm others, no one is there to judge you or punish you on the pretext of religion.

Food there is cheap. The Thai food there is really authentic Thai food and not some fake-ass wannabes that are being sold here at rip-off prices. Come to think of it, the food being sold here is just like some people here. Fake food covered with fake flavouring and colouring, while Fake people take cover behind religion.

People say that Krabi is dangerous, cos got hit by tsunami before. I say, i'd  rather be hit by a tsunami than hypocrisy and... "ponding"!

Friday, July 11, 2014

Produce, Direct, Act...

As some of you might have already known, I will be involved in a theatre production titled, Tanggang: The Unfilial Son.

Here is the first trailer for the production.....

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Conversation a couple of days ago…

Both myself and the BF were looking through our schedules to see if there is any possibility that we could go on a shot get-away soon.

Me: Fuck!

BF: What? What? (panics)

Me: What day is it today?

BF: 5th July

Me: Fuck. I totally forgot about our anniversary.

BF: It’s okay. I also didn’t remember it till you brought it up.

Me: (smiles) 3 years. Who’d knew? (pause) I love you.

BF: I love you too. (holds my hand tighter)

p.s: our anniversary was on 2nd July 2014. This is just a side note so hopefully i'll remember it next year....